Find out who I really am

i just wanna know who i am

I don’t really know who I am. I will update this as I learn :)

Ever since I was little I’ve always wanted to be like someone else. “That really pretty girl in my class”, “that perfect celebrity”, “that shiny supermodel”, I’ve never actually been content about who I am.
I’ve had a good deal of experience’s in my life, living in a foreign country and learning another language, moving to a number of different schools and having to settle in completely different environments and a few negative ones such as being bullied for a number of years, struggling to deal with an eating disorder, etc… but I have learned from and overcome all of them and in a way they have made me a better and stronger person. I’m now 15 and about to embark the biggest journey of my life – GCSE’s, further education and then on to a career. My goals are set and most people are raving about my academic achievements. I’m ready to follow the path of becoming a great and successful individual.
Only, there’s one thing missing. I have a caring and loving family, I don’t have any colossal problems to stress me out and I have a very wide circle of friends; with some particularly close ones to share my feelings with. But I don’t know who I am. This may well be a question that some (particularly older people) would answer with “you’ll learn in time” but I want to know now! How can I go on to be this successful individual if I don’t even know who the person staring at me in the mirror is? This isn’t just a question of curiosity but a necessity! It’s eating away at me and I need to know the answer.
I recently came out of what some people would describe as a “gothic” phase, and have completely changed the way I dress. But I never feel like I’m actually being me. Afterall, the way we dress is supposed to reflect our personality. But how can I reflect my personality when I don’t know what it’s like?! How do I discover who I really am?

I want to be more confident in myself when I make decisions. I want to know that what I’m doing is what I really want and not just influences from the people around me. I want to know that when it comes to big things, like if I really like a guy or what type of career do I really want to go into for the rest of my life, that it is truly what I want!

I want to know who I reall am. I was just reading an excerpt from a book that said that some things are easier if you are comfortable with who you are. But who am I? And how do I find out who I am and what made me the way I am.

Not meaning to be pushy or anything, but life isn’t about us, there is no meant to be this. It is all about meant to do. We are just tools of god.

this goal is never ending, but in the past three months I have really progressed, so I would say that I have succeeded!

hey people..
i need help to find out who i really am…i am a 21 yr old just thru with my graduation and really have no idea what i want form life even though i have a lucrative job offer in hand from a very reputed MNC.all my life i have been an obedient child ..doing well in my studies..exceeding my parents expectations every academic year..failing them only on rare occassions..so much so that seein them happy made me happy..i was doing things for them..and then i met this guy wen i was 16 and its been five years i have been with him..he is not doing tht great career wise as i am n though i would love to marry him eventually but it may not happen coz we have chosen diametrically opposed career paths..n then our levels of intelligence too vary a lot…i dont know..i have loved him and hee has loved me genuinely..hes a great guy and any woman wud be lucky to have him..but somehow i just done feel the spark for him anymore..as is on days i do..on others i dont..i feel like running away from him or my other over achieving friends…i have been so dependent on him..n so selfless in dealing with this relationship..puttin ‘our’ needs ahead of my own..thinking all the while that its hard to find good guys..but i need a break right now..to discover myself..that what i am and can be without him..what can i do with my life…where do i find contentment..i want to live my life..commit mistakes..learn from them..but m also a very negative person..infact even with postive developments i turn negative !..i badly need help..m sitting at home these days coz my joining date is a month away but as they say an idle mind is a devil’s workshop..same is the case with me..i kep on thinking endlessly about my future..my life..about what i want..

For years, I have been in the company of a couple of women, I have shared my life with someone special every day for the past 8 years. I dont know how much of me I have lost or I have compromised to be in some of these relationships, I know the relationships need compromise, but i want to find myself, the Me i can be proud of once more. I want to find the me that is TRULY me and Not a piece of the people ive been with. They were all great companions, and I am grateful for them sharing thier lives with me, but now its time to clean house emotionally and spiritually. Its time to start new. And so now I begin, with forty three things. And so I start with number 1, getting to know myself once more.

I am tired of trying to meet someone else’s expectations…