and they billed me for an entire month subscription even though I opted out of the trial before the three days ran out – so I sent out a bunch of messages to some attractive men and guess what no responses back – NONE – not a one – the men who had sent me messages are either far away in other cities or countries or really older than myself and I’m not interested – I hate this because it made me feel a little hopeless about finding someone right for me and made me miss my ex-bf – ugh -anyway I think I might be trying to hard – if I don’t find someone through this website I might just stop looking after this month’s subscription expires. 22 months ago

went on dating website the other day that is free called okcupid and I’ve gotten some responses back – so it is flattering to know others could find my attractive – and to know it’s a big pond out there just full of fishes. 23 months ago

difficult to love again when I am still in love with my ex boyfriend – it’s been several months of no contact and broken up with him yet I think of him and miss him. Songs remind me of him. Other stuff. I find myself comparing other men to him and no one is measuring up to him (quite literally he was a tall man) :)
Anyway – I need to stop it but I don’t know how – I keep thinking one day he’s going to come back. It’s stupid I know.
I suppose when the right person comes along I’ll know it and then forget about the ex – until then I’m just a little weirded out about it all. 23 months ago

hope that I can love again – I still miss my ex boyfriend whom I last saw four months ago terribly. Realistically I know it’s over. But part of me occasionally fantasizes about us being together although I know it is doomed in every aspect. Just think it will take time to get over him and make room in my heart for someone new and different. 23 months ago