I didn’t realize how guarded I am now because of the past. Last year I had a boyfriend who truly loved me and appreciated me. I sabotaged the relationship as soon as I knew how he felt and broke his heart. My actions surprised even me. I thought everyone WANTS to be loved, especially me. That’s what I thought anyway. But once I thought about it the people that I should let care for me I take for granted and don’t let them really know me and basically chase them away. It’s too hard to just let them love me because I’m scared if I love them back I’ll lose them, death is inevitable. That saying “tis better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all” is not true for me. I’ve loved, I’ve lost, I tried to love again and am always left in some way. In romantic situations I’m only comfortable with caring for people that are unavailable and a relationship will never get very far. I suppose it’s subconscious. But I’m going to work towards learning to open myself up to love again. The opportunities are all around me.
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 How I did it: Who knows how I "did" it? It just happened, and I definitely wasn't looking for it at the time. I had just ended a 2-year long, passionate, drama-filled relationship that completely shattered me (which followed immediately after a 6-year, extremely comfortable relationship which was more a friendship than anything). After 8 years of solid relationships, I was ready to flee. I had finished up my job, sold everything in my house, gave away my cat, and was literally about to flee the country for good when, at my going away party, I had a "moment" with a friend of a friend (a moment which went on all night!) and somehow my world was turned upside down by this kiss, and we've been inseparable ever since. |
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I found someone and gave all of my love, every ounce and gave it to her…
She took it all, she left, now I’m all out.
I don’t love anything anymore…
anything or anyone.
I just need someone to give me some of theirs…
just getting that off my chest
At first everything was sheer bliss, we had not a care in the world, it was simple, fun, loving and we just clicked. We gave everything for each other day in and day out. I tend to think we really were happy and deeply in love. At least I was with her. Three years later I am now alone due to my mistakes. No I didn’t cheat on her. I now feel empty and so alone sometimes. She says she cant trust me but wants to be friends. I ask myself why be friends when she cant even trust me. This was now 10 months ago and it still hurts me every day in and day out. I try and get over it but I can’t. It mildly pathetic. I can’t look at another girl. I can’t feel for another girls. I have tried to go out on dates but it feels so wrong for some reason. I hope I can do it in time. It’s hard….
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I feel as if this is accomplished because I’ve learn to love again. Sure, I’m in no relationship, but I’m ready for one. I’ll take on the goods and the bads. And while I’m trying to enjoy my “single” time, I am learning to love myself, because that is most important. Right? Right!
well i went out with with him for over a year.i let myself go with him he was everything to me.i lived and breathed him.i knew this was unhealthy.it never used 2 b this.i was the once in control.then one day i jsut seemed 2 fall
ne wa i found out he cheated on me.and i dnt kno how many times or who with either i guess i never got the closure i needed the closure i still need.
with been split for 4 months hes had sex with 3 people already.this makes me feel like shit.
although there is a lovely boy in my life who treats me great who i like talking to and have fun with..so u wud think im starting 2 fall in love with him but no we kiss and there isnt there what was there for the previous one.when my new huy treats me so much better
so confused
it has been a long time since he left me and i stayed wallowing within my own darkness for 3 years. but the after one day of getting sick and tired of being sick and tired 11 months later (3yrs and 11 months)i met someone who has changed my life and it feels like hes my soulmate when we are together. although i have many trust and other issues to deal with still we have been together for 6 months now.
that i took your advice and talked to the guy! i explained the whole thing, and how i wanted to love him, but i was afraid. he was SO UNDERSTANDING. he said that he loved me enough to help me open myself up to someone again, and that he would wait as long as that took and would never pressure me into anything i couldn’t handle yet.
I CANNOT THANK YOU GUYS ENOUGH.
