forgive everyone

first person to forgive is youself

then you can forgive and give forgiveness to others

same thing with love

first person to love is yourself

when you can give it to yourself, you have it to give to others

...working on it, hard to do, but it’s gotta be done. God, help!!!! :)

i think maybe somehow i already did this before i even made it a goal.

but i think maybe if i’m not sure, there’s still a little bit of hostility in me

They say you forgive but never foerget but if you never forget do you really forgive. I think secretly you don’t you keep it till finally you have to let it go. This last year a girl who had been rude and in considerate of anyones fellings apologized. She wrote a poem to me and to everyone like me that she ws deeply sorry. I wouldn’t have believed it if she hadn’t busted out crying and gave me a huge hug. I told her I forgave her, but I think I did it because it was expected of me not because I really meant it. I wanted to tell her it would take me a while to forgive because I felt that she really hadn’t changed. I have yet to completly forgive her. Little by little I do but the hurt and hatred of people like her are still with me. I believe I have to forgive everyone one else that hurt me before her before I can completly forgive her.

write letters
come to peace with everything

it doesn’t matter as long as it all is let go of