express what I feel

Lost in a Dream

Freefalling seeing the ground rush toward me…
Adrenaline zipping through my veins…
Heart pounding… about to explode…

Cool breeze in my hair as I watch the waves roll in…
Sand between my toes washes away with each wave…
Salt thick in the air like God himself was salting the earth…

Endless doorways room after room…
An anxious face with each unknown entry…
They all blur away with each new adventure…

Passion pulses all around inside me…
Erotic touches send shockwaves all over my body…
Goosebumps from head to toe…

Liquid sounds dancing in front of me…
Lights pulse in and out across screen…
Shadows come to life and fight over the light…

A smile with hungry eyes…
Scratched down my soul open to pain…
Love is real not a dream…
Love is real not a dream…

Please don’t wake up…
Please don’t wake up…
Please don’t wake up…

A new day to make your dreams come true…

the greatest love and admiration for this man. I place my trust in him and have complete confidence in his ability to do what he sets his mind to do. I don’t doubt him and I am at peace with his decisions. Funny thing is that I am a strong minded woman and a skeptic, at that. But I choose to take a chance and believe in him completely.

emotionally worn out… It has been a long weekend of pounding from all directions… I should be use to it by now but it really took a lot out of me this time… I am numb “for lack of a better word”... I know I just have to snap out of it… Like a big clap right in front of my face…”SMACK” ... It normally takes a bit to clear my head again and get back to what I call normal…

I feel grateful for health, very few worries, and an amazing mutual love. Not wanting to take this time for granted, I am actively trying to use my time wisely because I know that this time is not always available when contrasting situations to the present occur. I am so thankful that I can type this entry right now and hope these days last, and perhaps get even better. But for now, I feel pure gratitude.

I opened up and let go the other day…. It takes deep emotion for me to break out into tears… I think it was a combination of releasing fear from the past few days and the bottomless emotion of listening to the lyrics of the song that just sent me over the edge…. It was much more than just a cry… Affirmation of feelings that have been building up for weeks and weeks…. Letting go of everything even for just a few minutes and letting it out…. I can count on one hand how many times I have let go like that in my adult life…. I will never forget the emotions that came out that day!

that I am an understanding man… I except things for face value and do everything I can to understand the hows and whys… I can shut down my feelings about something until I know what the reality of the situation is… I never really thought about this before but I have done this for many years… If after I understand the situations I see there is a reason to be upset then and only then I allow the emotion… The only time when I cannot control my feelings is when I feel attacked or backed into a corner… Kind of like an animal I fight and lash back without thinking… That is something I want to learn to change… I want to be is a strong stable understanding man in every situation… The people I love deserve nothing less…

we must hear lies…I have seen a bright morning light that illuminates a world of new possibilities.

Full of hope… Happy for the first time in so many years… Relaxed and free from negative thoughts… Open to what life has in store for me… Deeply passionate about my lover… I love my kids and they know it… it is like I am able to dream again… I have so much life in front of me… now it is time to dream like a little boy… Dream