This doesn’t only apply to the internet, which is why I have chosen to join the group wanting to spend less time on the computer. Right now, this seems really hard for me to do, as I come up with things I cannot do in my opinion all the time, and this is annoying me already.
I don’t know how many hours I spend on the pc daily, but it must be really a lot. And if I am not on the pc, I usually also do things involving a screen (watching TV, playing games on the playstation, ...). I want to change this definitely, but it is hard for me to find a place to begin. If I really e. g. spend over 10 hours daily on the pc, then narrowing it to two hours or even less in one step sounds really hard for me.
Another problem I have is that, when I cut down on the time I spend on the pc, I “suddenly” have the idea to work on pieces of art or something like this on the pc. However, I currently don’t have access to all programs I’d need for this, which is a good thing I guess. Anyways, these thoughts make it even harder for me to stay off the pc. Plus, whenever I am not on the pc for a “longer” period of time, I have nothing on my mind than, “But what if I receive a message now? An important one …?”
I don’t have any friends living near me except for my sister, who is sharing this flat with me, as well as the pc. And I am a rather shy person, so it is rather hard for me to get to know others … Which might have resulted in me searching for this online.
Don’t get me wrong, I do appreciate the friends I have; they are also there for me when I need them, and I call them true friends, no matter whether I got to know them online or offline.
It is just—the time I spend on the pc truly weakens me, it takes all my energy so to speak, and I dislike this very much. I wish I knew what to do really. I cannot join a club or anything, because I cannot pay for it, plus the situation here is currently very unstable, and we are looking for a new flat, which might be further away then and whatnot.
Sorry if this seems all like whining; there will certainly be happier entries coming. I am just currently really sad about my own behavior and that it is so hard for me to just give up. 10 months ago