stop masturbating

I’ve made it to the three week mark, finally. The desire to masturbate is there, but I don’t have a necessity to do it. If I can make it to a month (I know I can), then I think I will finally have conquered the addiction.

hey!
i dislike it when i put ‘7th day’, for one. but it’s the first thing that pops up in my mind. giving it some kind of calendrical achievement.
i think thats when i got it wrong.
what am i exactly counting for?
it’ll be 10, 12, 15, 30, days, then what?
if i really want to stop masturbating, then i shall not mark how many days ive gone without Mbing. that’s a lot of stress.
let’s just forget counting. i dont know, it doesnt make sense to me.if i want to stop, why am i giving it some sort of benchmark? just freakin stop counting.goddamnit.

i want to stop for religious matter. and there is no need for further explanation as to why i should count the days. i just need to stop. period.

i think my sense of achievement is very much thwarted by marking off the calender. i must stop doing that. i shall just live and not think about it.

to all of you here, let me just say, you have my support. allllll the way! no matter what your purpose is, how you go about it, or whether you have to fall back on square one, you have my support.

because i feel a fierce energy of wanting to get out of this imprisoning habit here. and that is good energy baby. a great vibe indeed.

till then!

I’m having trouble hitting 5 days again.. well its time to start again

i was told of a new porn site, haven’t been to it and probably won’t.
i haven’t masturbated or looked at porn since february 1st and before february 1st respectively. it’s been almost half a year of not masturbating. that’s insane.

to be honest though, there’s no set length that will get you over this, as i’m experiencing temptation once again. this morning i almost convinced myself to come on the computer, turn off all of my safetysite things, and just have at it. the longer you go without ejaculation, the more tense it gets and the more you just want to release and this morning, it’s all i could think of.

however, i knew i couldn’t give up so i tried praying. and just thinking of not giving in, and not being consumed with self because this body will eventually die. so i meditated on everything else that is good and how you all here struggle with me also. thanks for the encouragement and the support, i hope we can continue to fight this fight.

let’s see if i can get through today. it wouldn’t be the end of the world if i let go of my 100+ streak day now, but it would be devastating to have to start over. at least i know i can make it this far…but i’m NOT giving in.

quite a few, but i don’t wanna talk about it

so sick and tired

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i don’t know how many days,
but february 1st was the last time.

it’s cyclical, it always is. i’ve mentioned it before,
and now i find myself wanting to give in. wanting to relieve the stress from everything else that’s not as stressful as i’m making it.

that feel good for a couple of seconds seems like it would be worth it, but i know it’s not. i’m staying determined, who said this would be easy?
it definitely isn’t, but overcoming the difficult is always rewarding.

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Alright, so I already had the boundary of ‘not looking at sexually explicit materials’. Now I’m going to add not masturbating in front of the computer, and not masturbating before noon. Slow but steady wins the race.

I don’t know but I can’t control myself at all…i try n try again but i fail…i hate myself…i can’t help it at all…if i try to stop it then i fantasize more and the urge increase more than ever..my life is becoming like hell…this has caused sunken eyes and i am turned into pathetic creature.