Post my thoughts

A friend asked me if I am already rich. I chuckled and said “no, I’m not”. I might be earning a decent salary but that doesn’t mean I am rich. I added that while money is important, it is not the most important thing to me.

I told my friend, I am more concerned on the welfare of my fellowmen especially those who have nothing. I want to be of more use – to be the best that I can be, and to use my capabilities to the fullest to be able to serve God.

This thought make me smile as I know I might have made him raised an eyebrow. Other friends will react the same too if they find out about this. I guess, it`s not in my personality. But inside me, I know this is what I want to do.

Looking back this past year, I realized I have made a big progress. Things that I am very thankful for.

But life isn’t all about reaching and living your dreams. You can have all the money in the world and still find yourself unhappy. What is success without sharing it with the people you love? It’s like an empty victory. I am reminded of a movie I watched as a young boy. It’s a story of a poor girl who dreamt of becoming a singer. She was determined to make it big and she succeeded. At the pink of her career, she suddenly quit and left the spotlight because she realized she was compromising her family for the sake of her career.
Her story inspired me and taught me to value people more than peronal achievements and even dreams.

As I think of my life, I am happy I’m not compromising lots for my career. Although I sometimes think of changing career and be of more use.

Just got back to work after being in Bali for 2 weeks.
i had the best time, i was so relaxed and happy.
got back to work and got told im getting a weekly pay cut, not happy its like nothing in my life can go right and be great without something shit happening to screw it all up.

shit like this always happens.

I never thought I would enjoy living in a small town that’s why I feel sad about moving to the city.

Im moving home at the start of Oct.
ive lived out of home for the past 2 years, i sorta had no choice, my parents each moved on and got married to new people and suddenly my brothers and i had to find new places to live, its been hard, really hard at times.

So im going to live with my mum again, im not sure how its going to work out. im excited to do it though, no rent, no bills no cooking ! ive become pretty independant – ive had to. and now its just going to be a big change again.

stupid roof. why did you have to be so dodgy!

ahh well.

I just found out from my housemate that the roof of our house is falling down.

Looks like im moving house again. 5th time in 2 years !

seriously just want to live somewhere for longer then 6 months, but something always seems to go wrong! my landlord wants the house back, my housemates are crazy, or the roof is falling down ! it seems to be a never ending thing, i dont know why i bother to unpack my boxes anymore.

i just want a home.

why do nuts taste so much better when they are dipped in yogurt or chocolate :(
i wish i could be healthy and eat nuts and seed with out chocolate covering them.

it start raining every day at 3.30 just when i have to walk to the bank and the post office? The rain ruins my day. its supposed to be Spring the rain should have stopped 2 days ago.. im looking out my window from my desk and there is a woman crossing the road with a massive jacket with a fur hood, she looks like she is freezing cold, this isnt right its supposed to be HOT.

Sometimes i worry that my boyfriend doesnt take this realtionship as seriously as i do. Im in it for the long haul and he is the only one i want but i dont know if his feelings are as strong as mine.
It confuses me. i worry alot.

I am sad.