gain self confidence

id like to love my body. and feel comfortable about it

i wnat to be happy wtih what i am and i want to look at myself and say: “I am not a lozer, i kan do whatever i want”

I want to tell my boyfriend more what I think.

When i go shopping or try on clothes or anything like that, even if i start off in a good mood, ill just get really self conscious about my body and start thinking like, whats the point in trying to look good, im not going to.

And when i go out with my friends etc, i cant really have a good time because im constantly focused on how i dont fit in with them and how people are probably laughing at me behind my back.

And i dont like it, i would love to feel comfortable and happy in my body and not cut myself.. but im not confident enough

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After living in a boiling hot country, wearing jeans and a long jumper today…I wore a skirt! Yes a skirt! and actually felt pretty.

I “REALLY” need to do this.

He’s a pretty confident guy, almost to the point of being egotistic. Me, I’m on the complete opposite of the spectrum. I’d like to be able to tell myself I’m a pretty amazing person, and believe it, and be able to hold me head high and take on whatever challenges might come my way.

i always wondered what really bother me!!! what makes me swing from one decision into anthor!!! being sometimes in one opinion then ends up by changing it….. not knowing what I am ? waiting for something to change my life as I couldn`t change myself .I really need to gain self confidence

I have gained quite a bit of self-confidence, but I dont think quite as much as I have wanted to.

I have been fighting to convince myself I am truly worthy to fit in, worthy to be called beautiful, worthy of everything life has for me. Like way too many people I was always the child caught in the middle as if everyone liked to scapegoat and put the blame on me. Now it’s become a fight with myself. I’ve been through two families (thank God it isn’t more) and I haven’t found people who are like me yet. My first mom was nothing but a self centered irresponsible woman who took me on a brief run into poverty (meaning you can’t have breakfast or dinner, because there is none). My adoptive mom is self centered as well but in a much different way. She stays at a job that pays shit just because it’s for a good cause but she still wants the finer things in life (brand new car, nails done all the time, new clothes, trips, whatever) and she forces my father to work to the point where the only quality time I get with him is on an overnight drive for a delivery run. Both know nothing about having a family and sacrificing what you want for the ones you love. I had my heart broken by both of these women I’m trying to come to terms on how to fix it. I would say the biggest thing it has given me is that I find it hard to hold my head up high without having a bruised ego. I almost feel silly in doing so because I know there are so many others out there worse than me. I might need some advice on how to do it. I’ve been told by many I could model but how can I act like it like I’m worth it?