Write more

Slowly, but steadily, I’m starting to get back to the miraculous world of creative writing (or creative nonfiction, if you please) and it feels wonderful. I have a history of getting excited and then losing interest but I hope I continue writing this time around. As much as I love this site, keeping a blog here never felt too natural, entries written here are meant to track the process of completing a goal and that’s the way I like it. Of course I’ve posted a lot of thoughts under different goals but it feels a little weird to have entries scattered around the site, although they are all under my name on my page. I felt like I needed a proper blog, too.

What I’ve noticed is that I absolutely love writing reviews, especially of books! I might not always follow a traditional way of writing a review, but expressing my thoughts and feelings about a certain book (or a movie or an album) makes me feel exhilarated, and I love it. When there is no pressure of deadlines or minimum word count or the likes, it also makes the whole writing process that much more enjoyable. I used to love book reviews in high school and I was fairly good at writing them as well – in Finnish, that is. Now that I’m trying my hand at English reviews, I also hope to perfect my writing skills and increase my vocabulary!

Here’s hoping. :)

can u feel my pain anymore…. can u hear me anymore… can love me anymore… there is more me than anything… so i ask u if u love me anymore…. i would love to love u all the time… the time to stop loving anymore… before i go i want to know if u love me anymore…. i can’t u anymore… ur heart beats gone or evermore….but why can’t u love me so how can i hold on to u… here my love and here her’s who do u want in life if she can’t and i can’t clean…. what does want anymore becaus i’m i’m tired…... i refuse to be ur slave anymore to bad u cry for her but as always i’ll love u for ever and ever… sso please tell me if u love me.

Sometimes on my phone, I’ll just quickly text a note to myself about random thoughts. So here are just a few of them…

- Is it easier to be a martyr than to be brave? Does settling mean giving in?

-The day will never come when I need to say what I want to say. I push it down until it becomes a black hole in the pit of my stomach.

-We let it die so why don’t we bury it together?

-I almost choked on your words because they sounded like a joke. Sadly, they were not.

-I think our happy endings have different characters in them.

-Why do I laugh the loudest when it’s silent elsewhere.

-Time is beginning to eclipse this usual ebb and flow.

-My heart stops when I hear that song even though I know it shouldn’t. It hurts to know that melody is for someone else’s love.

-Your condescending ways make me want to punch you in the face.

-It’s not a favor when they’re your kids too.

-Why do I feel bad about loving you?

NaNoWriMo
fersure!

www.nanowrimo.org

the problem is keeping up the habit for the other 11 months XD

Every day man kind strugles
To survive in this pafetik world.
And for what?
For finding peace of mind
And love.
It is pontles.
To find true peace you must be
A calm person and beleve that
This world is perfect and
Nothing is going to destroy
It’s beuty.
But then you must lie to your self.
Ewery day we hurt our self by
Thinking we can one day fall in
Love whit someone
It migh be for ewer,
But eventualy that love faints
And we are left whit just a
Memory of it.
And if that love is reseved it
Might leed to somthing but it
Also may brake your heart
Once again.
We are cuting our life short buy
Macking stupid choises.
But life whit out love is empty
And shalow.
It is the point of life.
Living whit out it is worse than
Living whit a broken hear.
When your heart is broken it
Hurts for as long as you love
The person that you where with.
But when your heart heals you
Understand that life is pontles
Whit out sufering.
You would newer know what is
True pain.
And if your heart brakes when
You are an old man it hurts more
Than haweing your hear broken 7
Tmes whil your still young.
It is a beutiful thing one way
Or an other. When you realy
Love somone that love stays
In your heart 4Ewer.

A friend and I have just started a novel, o that may spur me on. I have been on hiatus for a while. For almost two years, coming to think of it.

recently i have been writing alot more. but that’s been mainly for school and 43 things. Although i have opened up with my writing some more. By that i mean i am actually letting people read what i write….sometimes. And only the writing for school ive been doing. but any improvement is an improvement right.

when i find the time

i will sit down and write because for gods sakes i really need to!!

Everything took a complete turnaround! I have done almost nothing but right for the past couple of weeks. I guess I needed to get really down in the dumps before I could find good inspiration. I found something to write about that is very close to my heart and now I have been writing day and night. I have to carry a notebook with me everywhere, even sitting next to the shower, in case I need to scribble something down.

I LOVE THIS! I love having inspiration this way. I’m glad I have no control over it. I have this huge flood right now, and I know at some point it will go away and I’ll be depressed again, but it always comes back. I feel fantastic right now.

I’ve really let my writing go this year. I’m going to try and participate in NaNOWriMo and start trying to write in the morning, two or three times a week.

I wrote another dirty short story.