Buy a house on my own

I need to buy my own place. i have been renting, staying with relatives etc…way too long.

I think I am kind of person who need sense of belonging as well as security.So, I always want to buy a house on my own.I even don’t want to do it with my future boyfriend or life-partner, I just wanna purchase it totally on my own.I don’t like the feeling of depending on other people , sometimes we really need something or need doing something by ourselves to prove something.

I’m planning to buy a house on my own in 2008. My lease runs out in oct. So I figure I should start looking around in July. My little brother wants to move in with me which I think will be alot of fun.

My now ex and I purchased a house together, which I loved. I spent nearly a year painting and decorating, gardening and cleaning. Then when we split, he kept it.

If I buy a house on my own, there is nobody to take it from me! I can paint the walls pink if I want!!!

There are no negatives to this. I pay less for mortgage than most people I know pay for rent. I own something that is continually making me money, I get lots of privacy, and I can paint the walls any darn color I feel like.

The landlord at the last place I rented only allowed tenants to have white curtains.

Disillusionment of Ten O’Clock by Wallace Stevens:

The houses are haunted
By white night-gowns.
None are green,
Or purple with green rings,
Or green with yellow rings,
Or yellow with blue rings.
None of them are strange,
With socks of lace
And beaded ceintures.
People are not going
To dream of baboons and periwinkles.
Only, here and there, an old sailor,
Drunk and asleep in his boots,
Catches tigers
In red weather.

I’d rather be drunk and asleep in my boots.