practice detachment

a family supper is coming up and i’m dreading it
i don’t feel like nodding and smiling and i don’t feel like fighting either
sitting back and observing and staying out of my thoughts and not taking anything personally that’s detachment?
hmmm

My feelings get hurt so easily. I feel left out and lonely in my family. If I stay in my own safe world it’s not that bad. I find that no one wants to know how I am or what’s going on. I sound pitiful I know.

I am getting my mother to live with me. I am in the process of renovating the basement and she will have a nice bedroom, bathroom, livingroom and laundryroom. My sister asked about the rent and my mom said probably $700. I got an angry email from my sister but I know she is concerned about my mom too. We hadn’t talked price yet. My sister accused me of being greedy and not loving my mom. I’m not mad at her, but I do feel ‘distanced’ from her now. I kinda feel it isn’t any of her business anyway. I just can’t live with anger and worry. I let things like that slide over me. My mom and I will work it out….
the next day however, she apologized and things are all patched up between us. So all is good!