do one thing every day that scares me

1. I’m affraid to let my partner do what he want because I’m affraid to truly trust him. But I know that is the only way to be with him.
2. I’m affraid of darkness, I don’t like to be in small dark places like those from horror movies. But I know it stupid – if horrors were true – then romantic comedys would also be true.
3. I’m affraid of falling when I climb. But I want!
4. I’m affraid of knowing what people really think about my work – when I don’t care or when it is my masterpiece. I’m affraid of hearing the truth. Despite the fact that I did many times in my life and it wasn’t pleasant.
5. I’m affraid of telling people who I really am. But I consider myself as a honest and generally good person.
6. I’m affraid of telling people what I really think about them or about their actions. I don’t care if it hurt them, but I care if it could destroy that relationship. But relationshio without honesty – what is worth?
7. I’m affraid of deciding what I actually want to do in my life, cause I don’t feel ready to decide and I don’t trust my own decision, even of I should have dicided few years ago.
8. I’m affraid of being alone and rely on myself. It’s childish again.
9. I’m affraid of westing my time so I always try to do everything at the same time and because of this I actually west my time.
10. To admit that I made a mistake – that scares me.
11. To admit that I’m not any kind of a genius and I have to work for my life like everyone else
12. To meet new people and let them know my real self – and don’t play someone else

things that scare me include:
1)bugs
2)skateboarding in public
3)telling people how I feel
4)dodgeball (with the guys, that is)
5)soccer (and other sports that I suck at)
6)dancing
7)opening up to people/ not being shy
8)giving people an ACTUAL answer when they ask about my face
9)pictures of me
10)telling him I like him
11)tests
12)(at times) reality

So I guess the first step would be to identify some things I’m afraid of:

1) Eating things without knowing how many calories they have.
2) Playing violin when people are around.
3) Talking to friends I haven’t seen since school ended.
4) Letting people know how I feel.
5) Talking to my sister rather than ignoring her for fear she will snap at me.
6) Roller coasters.
7) Admitting to Dad I like something he does or agreeing with him instead of automatically arguing against his point of view.
8) Flirting.
9) Dancing full out in class.

There are many more, and I’m sure the list will grow.

Opened up to my big sister from the frat. I still don’t think she can handle me or know how to deal with me, but it was a good experience. I learned thing about her and her experiences.

Today, I hosted a Jeopardy Night. I’m a very shy person. Having to stand in front of a crowd for long period of time is really hard for me, especially when I’m the one running the show. No one noticed, but I was shaking the whole time.

I asked my internship supervisor if there is an opportunity for me to get pay while working there. =\

He said he’ll talk to the owners. I’m glad I got that off my chest.

“Do one thing everyday that scares you” – Eleanor Roosevelt

For me, every time I speak up about something I believe in, that’s scary.

And yesterday, I cheered for my pledge class. By myself. Like a fool.

besides sharks. i will not swim with them. nor watch them on television. nor stare at photographs of their bloody tiffany-shredding teeth. i need suggestions of things to fear. because i fear nothing. but sharks. danged jaws.

I need to push more of my limits. Challenging yourself in the face of fear is the only way to grow, and I need to grow. The minute I feel stagnant in my head I start to dislike myself. I hate that feeling. So I’m going to do something scary every day to see how fast (and how well) I grow.

The thought of not having television, books, audio-books, or movies for a week really scares me. What makes it more daunting is the fact that I’m going on vacation to a small town where there is absolutely nothing to do.

But it has to be done immediately. Delay these things and they never happen because the timing is never convenient.