do one thing every day that scares me

So I guess the first step would be to identify some things I’m afraid of:

1) Eating things without knowing how many calories they have.
2) Playing violin when people are around.
3) Talking to friends I haven’t seen since school ended.
4) Letting people know how I feel.
5) Talking to my sister rather than ignoring her for fear she will snap at me.
6) Roller coasters.
7) Admitting to Dad I like something he does or agreeing with him instead of automatically arguing against his point of view.
8) Flirting.
9) Dancing full out in class.

There are many more, and I’m sure the list will grow.

Opened up to my big sister from the frat. I still don’t think she can handle me or know how to deal with me, but it was a good experience. I learned thing about her and her experiences.

Today, I hosted a Jeopardy Night. I’m a very shy person. Having to stand in front of a crowd for long period of time is really hard for me, especially when I’m the one running the show. No one noticed, but I was shaking the whole time.

I asked my internship supervisor if there is an opportunity for me to get pay while working there. =\

He said he’ll talk to the owners. I’m glad I got that off my chest.

“Do one thing everyday that scares you” – Eleanor Roosevelt

For me, every time I speak up about something I believe in, that’s scary.

And yesterday, I cheered for my pledge class. By myself. Like a fool.

besides sharks. i will not swim with them. nor watch them on television. nor stare at photographs of their bloody tiffany-shredding teeth. i need suggestions of things to fear. because i fear nothing. but sharks. danged jaws.

I need to push more of my limits. Challenging yourself in the face of fear is the only way to grow, and I need to grow. The minute I feel stagnant in my head I start to dislike myself. I hate that feeling. So I’m going to do something scary every day to see how fast (and how well) I grow.

The thought of not having television, books, audio-books, or movies for a week really scares me. What makes it more daunting is the fact that I’m going on vacation to a small town where there is absolutely nothing to do.

But it has to be done immediately. Delay these things and they never happen because the timing is never convenient.

Only one other time have I participated in the Advanced BJJ class at my gym. Today I missed the earlier Fundamentals class, and I still had an urge to train, but I didn’t feel confident about going to the advanced class because I’ve only got one stripe on my belt.

Suddenly I realized I was being a little pussy and I had to do one thing everyday that I fear!

So I went to the class. Sure I did get choked-out until I blacked-out, but it was fun and I learned a lot, and more advanced techniques :)

Face a new fear every month