not fear love

even though i have heard of loving relationships which lasted long … somehow for me it never worked. i am so convinced that love deserts you , do whatever. and with this conviction m all so scared to be in love…
i want to feel it again but am so scared.. it hurts .. it hurts your heart somehow

Every time i start a relationship I freak out completely. I am so completely frightened about being with the ‘wrong’ person and I’m also frightened of letting someone really get to know me. I’m afraid I have too many expectations and I just make everything far too complicated. Haha…I think i just need to relax a little…