Explore the possibility of serving as a Special Pioneer

Prior to my nearly-one year of baptization on January 2006, I just turned 18 few months ago just little after I started pioneering, my first year. I have the goal to become a Special Pioneer in another country. Though I’m deaf, I haven’t heard of any Deaf who taking up as a Special Pioneer… but neverthless, I will wait for Jehovah’s answer. =D

This goal is worth doing because theres nothing to lose… I now know a little better what it takes to be a special pioneer and thats it really. I have another little instrument on my tool belt of life. So of course it was worth looking into this avenue of service!

Well I just spent about a month living with a special pioneer.

I think that this, along with having worked with a special pioneer each week for about two years… comes to furnish a complete picture of what its like to LIVE as a special pioneer.

Apart from meeting what are probably higher standards, and having the deep desire to engage in this avenue of service, I think I could probably do it. Not me of course, alone… but with Jehovahs help. Of course, they ALL do it with his help!

So what do I mean? Im not sre exactly. I guess I mean that I probably wouldnt PURSUE this avenue, only do it if I was invited to. Is that a bad attitude? I hope not.

Maybe its a case of praying that Jehovah helps me cultivate the desire to want to serve in this capacity.

Nothing has put me OFF this type of service… its just that it seems like alot to me. Right now I seem to prefer the rhythm of having something secular or mundane to do one day, and then a more focused preaching day the next. Generally, I just seem to enjoy that type of life more perhaps.

But the feeling Im left with is positive. I know that if I were to be invited, I would have a sober attitude about it and I wouldnt be able to refuse. And I would go into it knowing its very difficult and that I need Jehovahs help more than anything. I would feel too that Im sacrificing a way of life that I perhaps I would prefer. But of course giving J our best always is the best choice so I wouldnt be going wrong.