Regularly practice Tai Chi three times a week

This is just not happening. I’m not sure that I can even remember the movements, it has been so long since I practiced. Although the Tai Chi itself helps me, I found the class I was going to stressed me out. Finding another class is just not a priority at the moment.

I made two out of three times this week. Things fell apart in the latter end of the week, due to an impending university deadline.

Things are going on hold for the coming week too for the same reason.

I made it through this week, despite having a lot of resistance. The first time I started so many negative thoughts welled up. But I pushed through it.

I think I’ll try for ten minutes next week.

I’m feeling a lot of resistance to this goal, but I need to make a start on it. It’s important for my body.

This week I intend to practice for just 5 minutes on 3 days.

In my list of things I’ve completed there’s a goal called practice Tai Chi regularly. Well, I’ve been back sliding. I take classes twice a week on Wednesday nights and Saturday mornings. The teacher is Chinese and has high expectations of his students. For him, this isn’t exercise but a way of life that should be practiced every day.

Every time I go to my lesson I feel guilty that I haven’t been practicing on my own. And because I’ve come to associate guilt with Tai Chi I practice even less. It’s become hard to even drag myself to class.

In order to overcome this cycle, I’ve decided to stop taking classes for a little while. I’d like to get my personal practice up to speed.

I’m doing this for a number of reasons, not just to live up to my teacher’s expectations (although I obviously have some emotional work to do there). I’m doing this because my body needs me to do this, a way of counterbalancing all the time I spend sitting and writing. I feel it also fits in well with my spiritual path.

I missed my first class last night. I missed seeing everyone. It’s a great community. But I need to do this for myself.