know myself, love myself and be myself

I hate it, I’m depressed and I don’t know what I want in life…I feel doomed and depressed, I can’t think at all…my mind is spinning…I can’t find a reason why I’m here…my body aches and I feel like I’m being a whiny little b!@ch right now…I’m lost and I feel alone…I feel like throwing in the towel, but I want to find a reason that I’m here…I felt like unloading to see if it would help me, but so far I just feel just as bad…this isn’t helping

I have finally realized one thing I want in life, financial freedom, I would also like to write a book…I met someone that I REALLY like and would like to have the freedom to pick up and go where ever, so we can both really be happy…Just something that I’m thinking about because the future ran through my mind more so than usual…

This one isn’t going to be easy either, it goes hand in hand with learn how to be alone, because half the reason I dislike myself is becaue I can’t be alone, and half the reason I can’t be alone is because I dislike myself…I’m getting to this…