Come up with "Plan C"

I am trying to deal with feeling so strongly right about these regrets or why they are bothering me so much lately.
Niagara’s friend’s explanation (here) does help some and the being reminded that it is part of being human is humbling. If I had to make that same decision I would have.
In that article I was reading it had explained regret in a way that I was able to start to understand what regret actually is instead of focusing on what my regret actually is. The article mentions that regret is a mixture of being sad and angry. That your regret may entail enormous sadness and a little anger or enormous anger with a side of sadness, denying either component will get you stuck in bitter, unproductive regret. This piece mentions that if you look at the two emotions separate and identify what you’re angry at or sad for, once you clear your list of sorrows and outranges you can move on. This is where I am with knowing that I need to move on to the next whatever I have to do in life.
Sorrow is a normal reaction to losing anything significant: a dream, a possession, or an opportunity. Productive grief passes through you in waves, which feel horrific, but which steadily erode your sadness. Regret is telling you to seek out a part of whatever you’ve lost, hence Plan C in some respects. All in hopes that I will be able to reclaim some of the essential experiences you missed in my regrets.
Here is to hope!

the frustration, denial and possible regret to be able to make a move forward instead of sitting here or going backwards. I had mention I am tired of the silly shit going on around me along with the things that just don’t make sense or things I am starting to regret.

I am not normally or really have ever been a person of regret. My thoughts are if I hadn’t gone through what I have I would not be where I am at today. Plus playing the victim role is just very unflattering and gets extremely old listening too it. There was an article I was reading that talks of unproductive regret. That some use it to avoid difficult actions, using the regret as an excuse for staying where they are. If you are prone to these regrets, please hear this: Everyone one agrees with you. That thing you regret? It really, really, really should not have happened. But. It. Did. If you enjoy being miserable, by all means, continue to rail against this fact. If you would rather be happy, prune the should not haves from your mental story and move on to…
For me at this moment there is a regret I know that I have to let go. Letting it fall to the ground, if it shows up again, I will have to deal with it. But for me to move on with life, I need to let it go and move on.

I signed another year’s lease to stay where we are at currently. Its a decent place, just pisses me off that they are able to raise the rent by $20 every year. I know they are in the business of making money. With the way the economy is around here, it was the better choice to stay put another year.

The kid will and has said he will have to help me out with the rent. So that means he needs to find a “Yob” (any job will do). I firmly believe he has molasses in his ass. He isn’t a quick one to move on things. I blame that on the other side of the gene pool.

That is just a small part of my frustration lately. How can you help out with the rent if you don’t have a job??

I have been feeling overwhelmed these last few weeks. Not realizing that I am starting to get paralyzed by fear as I look at the big picture of Plan C. Having this big plan is good, change is good but I need to just focus on today and what needs to be done today.
I need to come up with some questions to ask myself for “today”. Its all in the plan …

This has been on my list of things to do for a long long time. Now that the kid will no longer be on my insurance in a month, I feel I am free-er to walk away from an easy job that has no self gratification for some time now. I won’t quit till I have another job in line, so its time to dust off the resume and move on with this.

Rent goes up every year. I refuse to pay anymore than I am this year. So I will need to move this August/September. I would like to stay in the general area. Need to consider the ever growing gas prices!! Ugh, I hate the looking part. :/

to have a plan of action this year. So there was Plan A (which involved love and the likes of) that didn’t work out. But other things from that plan did happen like my trip to London, which worked out for the better.

So then I came up with Plan B, knowing I would have to move in Septemeber. I thought maybe I would move near of one my best friends for a few years, it would have meant moving to another state. I went to visit her and her family, the town is a very small town. I am a city/burb girl, through and through. Living in a small town isn’t right for me and where I am at in my life right now.

Now its time to come up with Plan C.
My son graduates from high school on June 1st. I still need to move in September. I want to find a new job with a new company by the end of the year. And a whole bunch of little things along the way.
I figured I needed to come up with some sort of plan… and something that will keep me on track.
_{that’s why we are here on 43T right?!!}

Need to add a little luck and faith along with some pixie dust!!