Comment on the morale-o-meter

I spent all day alone and lonely in the new, empty house. Got some cleaning done, and some reading. Then, had to come home to the apartment and cook dinner. But DH and I had a nice evening continuing our game of Icewind Dale.

Not that amazing day. I had track and the workout was poopy, I have homework that I could swim in. And maybe the only positive thing out of this day is the mall that I might be going to? I don’t know.

I’m unusually good for having to do homework most of the day. One whole week until school starts again, sadly, so I have to do all the work I’ve been holding back on. Better to do it now instead of wait until Friday and waste my whole weekend. Plus I have a meet on Wednesday, so that takes out a whole day out of my schedule.

I already finished one out of two of my Physics labs, so that at least is a good thing. For AP Euro, I thought I had done one of my packets, but apparently not! So I got halfway through the chapter only to realize I hadn’t done the one before it. So I have some learning to do. No wonder I couldn’t remember anything. And I thought it was just the break…

Plus I have a project in AP Euro that I want to get started on so I’m not completely clueless when I get back after break. Better to be ahead of the game..

So yeah. A 9 today and I’m feeling accomplished!

Yesterday – A very, very hard workout in track. The air was so stale and it was so hard to breath that every time I would stop, I felt the need to pass out. That part of the day was the hardest for me and it sucked. We did ten laps, endless tag, long distances, wall sits. I feel it today.

Which leads me on to my mood today. Sore. For track today we ran a couple of miles, there and back. It was good to get out of the indoors running. However, this is INDOOR track. Should’ve ran indoors, but oh well. After track I took a shower and put on pajamas =] So I’m comfortable at least!

So my ratings for the next few days will probably be a little lower than otherwise. But, they won’t be too low as there are all sorts of other exciting things going on, like buying the house, preparing for maternity leave and baby, the holiday season, etc.

I love the idea of the Morale-O-Meter but the problem is I struggle to settle on a score! My days seem to range widly – moments of today have been a 1 (K still being a teenage nightmare), others have been a 10 (one smile from little Emma is all it takes!)

For that reason and marking this goal as done! Enjoy your 10s everyone!

Friday got a 10. I called in sick to work, bought some movies and hung out with the boyfriend and had a great time.

Saturday went down to a one. Steady low scores since then. Bad shit happened in the relationship that left me hurting worse than I have ever hurt before.

Today (Thursday) I’m up to a 6. Things are trying to get worked out in the relationship, I hung out with him today and I had a wonderful time. I’m still hurting, but today was one of those days that made it better and made me feel like everything may end up okay. (Which I am hoping for.) It was the first day since Saturday I haven’t cried because I was in pain.

It would have been a “6,” my new “normal,” except at the very end of the day DH and I went to bed at the same time and talked and giggled for awhile in bed. Very sweet, and a lovely end to the day. So, I upped the score to “7.”

But this is why we usually don’t go to bed at the same time, otherwise it takes forever to get to sleep. (Because of the talking! What else?)

Tried not to dwell on the non-appearance of the baby and distracted myself from baby things.

I took a couple of amusing internet tests (apparently I would sucessfully survive a zombie attack), took some photos, caught up with some jobs, watched some Scrubs and had some nice time with both the kids.

:)

I’ve been at an 8 for a while – enjoying maternity leave and doing things I enjoy.

Struggles with my teenage daughter have bought that down a little – it is a constant worry whether I’m handling things wisely.

Today is a 5. I had virtually no sleep last night as I kept having contractions and thought labout was going to kick off. Sadly no. Just enough discomfort to keep me awake. I really need this baby to arrive now!