move out of my parents' house

so hard to c why ppl can feel so dissappointed w/someone whos clearly a failure by any measure of the word?

the problem certainly lies with me. question is, how does one go about digging imself out of a ten-foot ditch & minimize the strain on others at the SAME time?

he minimizes contact w/others + speaks less, i suppose.

so far it kinda works, boredom and stuff aside. plus ah just take less responsibility for things not directly related to me and ppl tend to realize u were actually serving a function, albeit a small one in certain areas after u cease to look after the minor details.

dont get me wrong, i usually get / teach sumone else to do whatever it is i was doing before. work gets done, most evryones happy.

me simply thrilled to stay out of trouble, at present

My boyfriend & I-

Living in my mothers house with 5 other people plus 5 dogs & the strain of our own relationship because we cannot grow or move up in this relationship. Help us get out of here.

I’d like to have my own place by the end of this year.

I think that gives me enough time to save up some cash, and it gives me a definite timeline to aim for.

I can’t wait to get my own place.

find a place to call ur own, away from home.

in my case it will boil down to @ least 2 places one for my own time when ppl r working their butts off unlike soem professional slackerz

..and the second where u can take a person / small group of ppl away from prying eyes. seriously, sumdays i feel the walls have eyes. paranoia maybe but in this day of technological devices its NOT so far-fetched.

identify ur adversary.

then, go to great lengths to make sure u plant stuff for ‘them’ to find and never completely tell the truth.

- if that person goes thru ur stuff when ‘they’ think ur not aware
- if that person has forced horrible choices when u were trapped between a rock & a hard place
- if all u want iz breathing space but, for some reason people wont leave u THE F$$K Alone

after all, u werent dealt with fair and square. the gloves come off.
right freakin NOW

there were rare moments when I used to think: how about moving out of this place?

NOW

there are rare moments when I think: how about staying here?

But these fly away so soon…

Just time to get on my way

Things were okay for a week, now she’s back to her old ways and I’m frustrated and annoyed and feeling like shit. Dad’s away this week at least. I literally can’t wait till I’m out of here :’(

It sure makes having “relations” easier. Great if you’re a highly independent type of person, otherwise you may find it a waste of time and money.

Not that it’s insufferable to live with them
the opposite
my dad is one of my best friends

but i want to
create my own space
design it the way i like
and use for the purpose i want

i went back and measured it today. 15×15, but the kitchen goes about 5ft into the living space making it 15×10 – just as i thought. oh how am i going to manage this…