plan my own funeral

I want to have everything in place so people know exactly what I want. I don’t want anything religious. I don’t want cheesy songs. I don’t want crying. I want it to be a celebration of my life, this list and everything I have achieved!

I’d like to be cremated first, with again no religous overtone at all. My atheism MUST be mentioned! Then my ashes should be sprinkled out at sea, or in the forest. Or, over my Mum, which is what happened to my Dad’s ashes when the wind blew!

. . . what would happen to me. Having no children, I need to make sure things are easy to do and money is provided for whatever. Maybe my Godchildren will take on the task. Just in case, I’ll have it all outlined and arranged. Looks like a visit to www.FuneralTools.com is in order.

I just want to make sure nobody disposes of me in a bad dress or a coffin. I’m trying to be eco-friendly so I’m exploring those type of options :)
ANd I don’t want to come back as a zombie for some wierd future reason :O

the joke for a while was, “If you do __, I’ll invite you to my funeral. XD

So yesterday my sister told me that there are some companies that will cremate you then pack your ashes in the shells of fireworks then use you in your funeral display. So I tole her thats what I want. i haven’t been able to find anywhere in Kansas that does it, but I figured she’d find a way. It would be awesome. I also told her that she could pick out a song that she though would be good. So as for now, this is how I want it, and I’m declaring it done!

After 10 years of Anorexia Nervosa I have finally come to realise that I will never be able to break the hold this has over me. I’m not sad or upset. This thought doesn’t scare me, in fact it fills me with a tiny bit of confort. Time to stop feeling and being so alone.

I always thought that I would want to be buried. This has now changed. I want to be cremated. The reason for this being that I dont want people to feel that they have to go to one place to think or remember me. I dont want to dictate a plave for people to put their memorys and leave them there. Their memorys belong to them. They must remember them where and how ever they choose. Thats there right. Thats what I want.

The HBO show Six Feet Under inspired me to start planning for my own demise. I need to figure out if you can get insurance to pay for cremation in advance.

Cremation or Burial?

Cremation – you can have your ashes spread anywhere and everywhere. And it can be a spiritual journey for those you spread them

Burial – well there are the religious reasons. Also you would have a place to future generations to visit. But then I have to ask, would they care? I mean I don’t really when we visit them, which sounds horrible. Then I think, because I’m in an archeogoly class, I won’t exist after I’m dead if I don’t have a tomb stone.

I’ve been thinking about music. And i kinda like the idea of a classical piece, played live not a record, if possible. I’m not sure if I want a string quartet style. I really love the emotion strings gives out, the pain, hearbreak, longing.

But I’ve also been listening to the Venetian Boat Song lately. I really love it. Its a piano piece, and I have a special spot in my heart for the piano. I always imagine some one on a boat passing under the bridges and seeing a passed loved one on the sidewalks, slowly following them. As if saying, I’m here and am safe. Then the passenger passes underneath a bridge, and the loved one is gone. Gone to leave the passenger to live his/her’s life.

I’m sure it wounds morbid. But so everyone knows, I do think i’ve beat my suicidal tendency and its not aobut that. I just would like things a little planed out so if/when it happens there will be something written down on how I would like it.

I’ve heard that alot of families have arguements because one side wants creamation, the other buriel. Etc etc. So if something like that were to happen, I’d like a piece of paper that say,....no no no I want this.