Have healthy teeth

I think I am finally through the nightmarish dentistry of my childhood and into better years teeth wise.

i actually had a teeth cleaning for the first time in…10 years?? jesus, i felt fucking violated by the end of it…

but DAMN are my choppers pearly!

I should have listened to my mum.
Its not so much that they’re really bad, just that they aren’t going to get any better.

the pain never ends

since i got one wisdom tooth pulled, i’ve been in ridiculous pain for the past month…i went to an oral surgeon to figure out what the hell is wrong with me…the pain was so bad this morning that even demerol didn’t do anything

so i got ANOTHER TOOTH PULLED today…(a wisdom tooth, but godDAMNIT)...i’m now in agony…and i’m not certain that the pain will stop with this…apparently i might need a root canal on another tooth…

i’m going nuts….

i take good care of my teeth too! i floss every now and again, brush my teeth every day…i don’t eat crazy amounts of sugar…bah…bah i say

so i’ve been in unbearable tooth/jaw/something pain for the past 13 hours…in those 13 hours i’ve taken 2 very strong vicodin, around 800 mg of ibuprofen on TOP of that and a melatonin to try to sleep through everything…

i’m now about to pop a xanax because i’m on the verge of having a conniption

the dentist’s office doesn’t open for another 3 hours and i feel like the painkillers aren’t doing anything

i have NO MONEY to pay for ANY kind of medication or dental procedure

i’m going to have to call out of my job that i just got because i’m in too much pain to fucking think, let alone stand on my feet for 8 hours and lift heavy boxes of wine into people’s shopping carts

what do i do?

what the FUCK do i do now?

AND WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY FUCKING MOUTH?????

i told the dentist in the last two visits (i’ve been there maybe 5 times in the past 3 weeks) that i think i need xrays done again, i think it might be an abscess, that something is WRONG with the nerves on the left side of my jaw

each dentist has looked in, each one has told me it’s “just pain”, it will go away, the gum has receded a bit making the tooth more exposed to temperature
then they send me home with an rx for vicoprofen after telling me it couldn’t possibly be an infection because i took a course of amoxicillin 2 weeks ago…

i very rarely get angry with people, but i’m going to fucking sue the shit out of these bastards if they do not do the following for me today:
-give me as many xrays as they can handle
-get rid of my fucking pain immediately
-give me copies of my xrays so i can mail them to a family friend who is also a dentist
-fix it
-not charge me a fucking dime

i’m so worried i’m going to lose THIS job now…NO ONE else has responded to any of the dozens of emails i’m sent out in the past 2 weeks…

igor is all the way in california (in san diego without me…go figure) so i don’t even have anyone to cuddle with

::goes to get a mallet to brain self with::

i thought i was doing the good thing by getting a painful wisdom tooth extracted on saturday, but ever since i’ve been in unending and excruciating pain.

for whatever reason, the dentist said he didn’t need to sew the socket shut after the extraction…i know he had done some minor surgery (sawing the bone)

i now have a dry socket and it’s been one of the worst experiences ever….i didn’t know the body could withstand 5 days of this kind of pain without like…shutting down or something…i’ve had to miss work because of this (and in all likelihood will have to quit my job because of the fight i had with my boss about taking time off for this)

vicodin doesn’t help for more than 4 hours and also makes me sick as hell to my stomach

800mg of ibuprofen has been lasting for 3 hours at a time….anything can make this pain worse, breathing, drinking anything, eating anything, standing up, laying down

i’m ready to go insane…

a very very small piece of my afflicted tooth came out last night…i am fucking horrified.

hereditarily, i have weak teeth…i’ve had so many cavities it frightens me, and i don’t drink soda or eat candy like i used to…i brush everyday and attempt to floss as much as possible…teeth are just one of those things you um…wanna have around, ya know?