be fun

I find it hard to be fun. I guess it is because I don’t know how. I’ve been getting bored this whole week. Nobody wants to do things because it snowed. And I don’t find it fun to sit at a bar not talking to the people I go out with. I don’t know what to do mabe I can’t let go of who knows what. I think I will take the weekend off to be by myself and hopefully this whole thing will pass.

I’m starting to see that I am a fun person, or at least other people want to be around me, so I must be to some extent. I want to be a little more lighthearted and friendly. Smile at people more.

I want people to like me more

I want to “be fun”. To me, “having fun” doesn’t mean you go find it and get it from somewhere. I can be fun anytime I choose and I can “be fun” for those around me. I’m not saying I know how to do this because I keep forgetting to be fun (I like the cool little reminder that 43 will send me in a month…).
:)

I need to let go of my worries about what other ppl think. Just throw my head back and dance like an idiot. Not be scared to try more things, laugh more, judge less. I want to be someone ppl want to have around…because I’m fun : )