do work that I LOVE

I have refined and updated my resume. Working on a new Resume page for the Web site.

Money to invest in my future has become available (check cleared), so today I moved the funds into a savings account, temporarily, until I make the decisions about what specific investments I need to make (equipment, marketing, etc.).

Feels like it’s getting closer. At the same time, I am still sending out resumes. Just in case.

I’m becoming more aware of my personal criteria for accepting work. It’s a little bit like a point system. Like, 1 point for a job where I take a senior role or use my high-level skills, or .5 point for having a business philosophy that I like, or .25 point if it pays over $40/hr.

It’s also becoming clearer what interests me most, and my Statement of Interest on my portfolio site reflects this more. I am getting feedback and critiques from various friends and colleagues.

Now I need to prioritize another creative activity for awhile. That will bring me closer to this goal, but I can shift the focus from this goal a bit (and still get there).

but it no longer belongs on this list.

I’m tearing down my “Things” to build them back up…

I’ve decided to broaden the wording of this goal. I feel more confident about being a free agent lately. Who knows, I may be able to make more money on my own. I just need to market myself well, and I think I’m making good progress in that direction.

I’m scared to try. I know what I want to do but am simply paralyzed.

I try to feel the fear but do it anyway, in this case (as in so many other cases in my life).

I just saw someone’s entry that included the well-known quotation/ rhetorical question “What would you do if you knew you could not fail?” Wow. My answer is: I would be doing very, very different work than what I’m doing now.

sigh

but not as often as I should. (My last work was just a presentation I had to make of work that I’d done months before…nothing very stimulating or profitable.) Partly because, I rarely love it. When I do work that I love, I feel really alive and joyful and smart and unique and worthwhile.

is something i experience when I coach. I’m starting a couple of fearbuster groups towards the end of july… i just love this work (someone pinch me cuz I still can’t believe it’s work.) my heart absolutely sings with joy when I finish with a client call or just connect with another person on their fearless path and we get the chance to share our experience. I found this quote the other day and I had to put it on my myspace profile because it spoke so loudly to me…

“The joy & feelings of flow you may experience while doing your chosen pursuit are because you are tapping into the universal life force. “

http://www.CognizanceCoaching.com

i just finished a fabulous book. it came it such a divine time in my life. contemplating taking bigger risks than ever before… leaving the comfort of my day job to follow my bliss. i recommend this book whole-heartedly to anyone considering unleashing their own personal creativity… “This Time I Dance… Trusting the Journey to Creating the Work You Love”

http://www.CognizanceCoaching.com

I realize that i don’t even like what i do. i have steadily progressed and if i wanted to this, i would be right on track. i just have no passion for it. i wish i could work without considering the money but i’m in one of the highest paying industries in the Bay Area. I just want to enjoy what i do and not spend the majority of my waking moments waiting to get ti over with and go home…

I can work from wherever I want to and I am free to work at 3am if I feel I need or want to do things during the day. Now that I became shareholder is extra incentive and gives me the feeling that I have the future in my own hands again.