Decide what to be when I grow up

good morning,
I’m from china, glad to meet you,

i have no idea :(

I have decided what I want to be when I grow up. Here it is:
“I want to be the eccentric, weird person, that evades all definitions. I will not be defined by my proffession, because I will be free to change it every few years when I’ve had enoguh. I will not be defined by where I live because I will rent for the rest of my life and move every couple of years. I will be talked about behind my back with some amazement, much criticism but also with some fondness as the weird lady who does this or that”.

I added this as a goal, because I thought it was kind of cute, and I am at a point in my life where before too much time passes I’ll be transitioning between being a stay-at-home-mom and . . . um . . . something else. But I don’t know when that’s going to happen, and I still don’t really know what I’ll do next. I’ve got ideas about some things, but really, I’ve realized that it doesn’t matter. I don’t need to have a plan for the future. All I need to do is be content in the present moment, and trust that that universe will guide me where I need to go next. Also, it never hurts to remember that I’m already great, just the way I am. (Not that I don’t want to grow; it’s just that I don’t need to be “fixed”).

Besides, like someone here said, I don’t intend to really ever “grow up.” I’d rather just enjoy the journey. :)

I’ve been chanting the Gayatri Mantra daily for more than a month now, and I really do feel it’s helping me find direction – illuminating my path. No, I haven’t “decided” yet, but I feel I’m moving in the right direction now.

I’ve wanted to be a doctor around a year ago, but since then, situations have changed, and I’ve realised that perhaps I’m better off as an accountant. I’m quite good with numbers, and I like having to follow a pattern every day (patterns are good, I sound obsessive compulsive almost, yes?). Being an accountant will hopefully be less of a mental challenge than in the medical profession, which is kind of one of the reasons why I chose it.

Yes, this is a serious goal. Even though in most ways I do qualify as a “grown up.” I suppose a better way of stating it is to decide what I want to do when my son grows up. :D And right now, I’m really not sure what I want to pursue when he doesn’t need me around quite so much. Honestly, I could pursue something now – I’ve got time during the day while he’s at school. But I don’t yet know what.

I’m a freshman in college, and still not sure of what I want to do. Everyone seems to have this problem, at least until they get to college :-P Architect, artist, whatever… I don’t know. It needs to be a job where I can work from home, and that the pay is decent (want to raise children and homeschool them), but I can’t think of anything to fit that that I want to do. Unfortunatley… I’m growing up faster than I think I am.