speak my mind

I haven’t really been saying what I think recently, usually because I’ve been wanting to avoid embarassing situations – even with my close friends and my sister. I’m usually the type of person who won’t say anything if it’ll mean no awkward or tense moments. Some things really are better left unsaid, though.

I’m in a backpackers and have been talking to people about all kinds of things. It’s been years since I just said what I thought. And then yesterday I was saying what U wanted to say, telling people what I prefer doing and even had a debate/discussion about Marx and CHinese communism. I really shared my point of view. ONe point for the good guys!

i never really tell people how i feel about shit and i think i need to tell them what i think rather than keep it all to myself…be more open

I really need to do this… I think im getting pretty tired of being used.
I have a bad habit of not being able to say no.
I want to be able to voice my opinions and not feel guilty about saying the wrong thing

I dont know how im ever going to do this but i at least got to try

God, I can say the stupidest things sometimes. I can be hurtful with my remarks too. Maybe this goal wasn’t such a good idea… I may be expressing myself more liberally in one sense, but on the other hand, I’m compromising other people’s feelings. I don’t know if I should give this one up. Decisions, decisions.

I want to continue to learn how to speak my mind without being afraid of what people will think.

to work on having informed opinions and express myself, to understand my emotions and talk through them.

I spent some time today trying to get to the heart of my beliefs that drive this inablity to speak my mind at work. I think that I understand that better now. So I’m going to spend time working on why I run away from confrontation. I want to get really good at giving feedback to others in a way that is compassionate and fair, while being true to my perspective & opinions and to really support my personal boundaries. So that’s the desire. Now how do I get it? Firstly,one of my beliefs is that I don’t clearly express what I think and feel. I want to join a public speaking club so that I can feel sure about my ability to speak my mind. So that’s the next big step. Until then I’m just going to keep doing my best at this goal.

This is going to make a massive change in my ife. I simply don’t want to be stuck in my own head anymore. I want to contribute. I want to value my contribution to the world and see my thoughts and words move things, people, events. Something! Anything!

It’s weird. I’ve tried speaking my mind before, and although I sometimes get nothing but looks off people like I belong in a mental asylum, I feel… lighter for having said it. Now if I could only start to make sense of the things I say…