accepting things from my past

Took it off my chest, turned it on all the sides, cried, lamented, accused, blackmailed,forgiven, (all are part of the healing process i think) then eventually i got tired of it.. It was like swimming against the current.
I don’t ever want to go through that torment again, so.. there it is, if it pops out back again sometime in the future, I will deal with it in 2 seconds.

Dum di dummm … I’m kindof tired of bragging on about this. Feels nice to not get that lump in my stomach anymore. Today it’s Friday and I’m gonna celebrate my achievement. I’m gonna have a laugh all day and chill, even tho i’m goin to work. Tomorrow I’m gonna go and buy some new greeeeeen shoes :D.
It’s easy to say it, but what’s gone it’s gone…I hope everyone eventually can realise this

I think I’ve finished with this goal… I will keep it on this list till tomorrow or the next day to see how I feel about it. to me iT seems such a big statement that it almost freaks me out sometimes,like I can’t believe I really don’t give 2 flying monkeys anymore about some things that had happened cos I’ve better things to do with my energy.

I will let this idea to sink in a little more then put it on the Done list.

sometimes it’s so easy to fall into that that of ‘goin back’ and maybem just maybe this time i would succeed to turn back time and change things. what works for me is to surround myself with good positive people cos they help focus more on present and future and life in general especially the good bits of it and it’s great.

it’s getting better, day by day, as long as I don’t think about it. haha

still hard to accept my mum sometimes for what she is. I used to expect too much from her and get dissapointed, angry and frustrated with her. I am learnign to see her as what she is, a human being who gave me life and loves me, with her own warts and all, not in any case supernatural and my problem solver.

..with my mum.

going back to my hometown helps me realise how much progress I’ve already made with this goal. Still a long (maybe not) way to go, but I feel I’m more than half the way there.

hey. thank you for your cheer. i’m gonna keep this goal i’ve decided.

obviously a long journey ( i like that word, journey). i’m gonna delete htis goal cos i feel uncomfortable even reading it.
i’ll wait till tomorrow see what happens.