live passionately

Honesty with loved ones is not something you calculate whether you can afford or not afford. It’s something you choose whether or not to do. And if you choose not to be honest with loved ones it will likely cost you more than you currently comprehend.

It’s not that nakedness reveals truth.

It’s that the whole truth cannot be found in the absence of nakedness.

I;am not there yet but I will get there there soon enough.

Slow down and enjoy life. It’s not only the scenery you miss by going too fast – you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.
Eddie Cantor (1892 – 1964)

Have you felt cheated because you feel no one has ever loved you with their whole heart?

Have you ever loved someone completely? If you have not, then it may be unrealistic for you to expect others to love you completely.

Don’t expect others to love you fully until you have loved others fully.

There are probably 4 significant others I have offered all my love to in my life. Most of them were not interested – so, in most cases I ended up offering everything and not receiving back in like kind. That is always hard. After my offer was declined, I did not withdraw my offer in anger, frustration, or as “revenge.” I left my offers outstanding even after they were declined – to demonstrate that when I said I would care for them always, I meant it.

You may not receive full commitment from others until you demonstrate full commitment toward others. And I’m not talking about being totally committed to your family or children. That counts, but not in a relevant measure to what I am discussing. Most people fully love their children and that is a great thing, but that is also a self-serving endeavor in most cases.

If you want someone to love you completely, then first demonstrate you love others completely. Until then, don’t ask others to pity or to be sympathetic to the fact that no one has loved you completely.

This will likely lead you to loving and losing, but there are worse things than giving your all to someone and having them decline your offer.

Better to have loved fully and to not have been loved in return than to never experience and demonstrate what it means to love someone else fully.

I’m not saying that if you love others fully, you will be loved in return fully. But I think you will improve your odds and your life if you clearly love others fully first.

I’m so glad I found 43 things! But to be completely honest, even writing this entry is scary. I want to live passionately, to have a life of integrity and balance, of love and creativity.

Mainly, I need to “get out of my own way.” I need to learn to take the “baby steps”, and live a life of courage. But fear and indecision keep getting in the way. I know I have talent. I need to stop feeling overwhelmed by what should be joyous. Everything good feels terrifying. Please help.

Any suggestions?

The journey is the reward.

If I stay where I am part-time
I have health insurance which I pay for 50% of

If I leave right now I will be left without it

However if I leave I will make more money
eventually I can buy my own insurance
but not right now

By staying I’m getting sick; mentally drained and fatigued
Still I’m afraid to leave for uncertainty

and in all of this…
I’m trying to live passionately but it’s sucking the life out of me

And on a Friday night I wish I were going out instead of staying in to get to bed early so that I can get up and work tomorrow for health insurance!!!

‘When you are inspired by some great purpose, some extraordinary project, all your thoughts break their bounds… and you discover yourself to be a greater person by far than you ever dreamed yourself to be.”
- Patanjali, physician and “founder” of yoga

Cooking is my passion. And I am discovering something new about myself every day now that I am free to be me !

I will begin with learning about how I am.