live passionately

I could have written the same thing as here – well actually I wasn’t sure for what goal I was writing that entry. Yesterday was not the best day (nothing major, just a small dip), today looks much brighter already.

Passions? Exercise (running (when my hip will allow me to do that… inshallah), climbing…), hiking, theatre, traveling. There, I know what to do. 1 week ago

Life has really been though to me last 10 years. All started by my move to abroad to live permanently leaving my home, family and great friends behind. Then my marriage ended, after making huge efforts for it not to end. It did end in the end. That left me feeling a bit of a failure and lonely in a foreign country. After so many years of battle with depression and all I lost interest in doing things in life and felt angry and let down by people. I was here with a lot of heart aches and I was only thinking of everything that upset me in life.
After a long time of having ups and downs things finally started changing for better and I started feeling better consistently. I started feeling strong and more positive and good about the changes happening around me. I have started learning to deal with difficulties that life offers from time to time.

Now, I am in a great relationship I hope it lasts forever but I know that if it didn’t I will still survive. There is no guarantee for anything in life. I survived when my 12 years relationship ended and survived after my 3 and half years marriage ended. I think it is important not to live in fear because I had bad experiences in the past.

Now, I figured out that there are different key elements to live life passionately. One of them is MAKING THE MOST OF EVERY OPPORTUNTY. Let’s say by meeting new people, by caring for people. For example, I started accepting invitations and mixing with people again. I started travelling again. Went to New York with a girl friend from back home last November. We met in NY to have a girly week end break.
I am doing great things with my fiancé WITHOUT MAKING ANY EXCUSES which is another key element of living passionetly.

I know that living passionately does not mean everything will be perfect all the time. There will be number of obstacles that may stand in my way. Like feeling down or not to feel like putting energy in to live passionately. Difficult people may come in my way whom will frustrate or distract me. But what I know now is I will NOT LET ANYTHING TO HOLD ME BACK. I have great plans and hopes for life. I will do EVERYTHING WITH MY BEST ABILITY to enjoy life. 10 months ago

Grateful to be alive

Bliss. 3 weeks ago

This morning it was raining. The morning was dark, windy, and cold. I stopped at the coffee place I like to go to. And as I walked thru the parking lot I held my hands out, (palms up) so that I could catch the rain drops. It was a beautiful morning. 3 weeks ago

I’m finding it hard to be passionate about much of anything right now.

I’m sad. I’m hurt. I’m heartsore.

I try to be positive, I try to do things that will take the focus off the sad feelings, but at the end of the day, I just feel sad again. 3 weeks ago

is to be happy !

So the question remains:
how to be happy ? 1 month ago

43t’s countdown to the New Year is a convenient countdown for my trip as well, since I leave on the 2nd. Then I have ten whole weeks (well, fine, nine weeks and six days) to enjoy traveling, volunteering, and visiting friends. Then I will hopefully come home to a short stack of grad school acceptances. Then (pause for six months) on with my life!
In the meantime, I do sort of enjoy my job, mostly, even though it’s a temporary gig. 2 months ago

nor the mistakes that you’d done

but

always, always learn the mistake that you’d made

only then, I guess

you can live passionately properly… 2 months ago

I’m not sure of the balance between accepting yourself for who you are, and constantly striving to improve yourself. 2 months ago

1) Shower everybody you know with kindness and love indiscriminately.
2) Give them advice of wisdom, if they want to seek from me.
3) Keep a healthy balance of lifestyle and work – both spiritually and materially.
4) Be sincere in everything you do, esp. to another human being.
5) Never regret the past.
6) Appreciate every important person in your life.
7) Live in the moment. 2 months ago

I let the sunshine hit my face today, this warm feeling brings me happiness 3 months ago

And what dya know. I have a lot of positives to show for it. My husband and I were plan-nazi’s for years and when we just started to take life by the horns it was fun! we were blessed with lots to show for it, including our brand new daughter!

Its not always wise to jump into things both feet, but we had a safety net. That’s the only way to do it. otherwise youll fall, and you will hurt yourself. 3 months ago

The time has changed and it’s getting dark out so early. I need to remind myself to get out from behind my desk and enjoy the sun when it’s out… or I need to remind myself that you can also see/ find passion when it’s dark outside. 3 months ago

Right now, I feel like I am frozen. I’m not in grad school as I had planned to be this year, so I am mostly just trying to speed through the year as quickly as possible while waiting for something better. I think this is how most people end up living their entire lives. I never ever want to do that again. 3 months ago