keep track of my successes

The organization for which I am volunteering wanted a meditation garden. I found both someone to donate the necessary plants and people to help with the planting.

My career’s in the toilet. I’m getting paid less than minimum wage. I had to give up my business. Both kids are now adding to my support. I’m stuck at 132 lbs. What success, exactly, can I lay claim to? ^{head banging against wall}

But I made a nice, large pot. It felt good, except, of course, for the pain.

I know I’m a month late, but look at it this way – I missed the rush!

Spent all afternoon today tagging stuff. I hope it doesn’t rain.

In the spirit of all doing the poem-a-day thing this month, I thought I’d put my annual self-evaluation into verse.

I bloom slowly, languidly in this long-awaited spring.
The almost endless winter of my discontent and grief is done.
The cold ashes from my hearth and heart are gone
They nourish earth along another sea.

My pleasure feels like sin, it’s been so long!
I stem the impulse to stifle and surrender
To relief and pent-up joy like molten rock
That runs through veins that by some miracle still pulse.

The world is new and changed beyond my map.
And I, both old and new in it must travel paths
That lead away from old familiar comforts yet promise
Still seasons awash in growth and warmth.

But I have become aware recently of how very competent I am. I have observed any number of people who either through their lack of experience, training, or will, are just simply unable to problem-solve, trouble-shoot, change directions, what have you. Any little obstacle and they are stymied. Of course, this hasn’t helped me get any jobs, but that’s ok. I don’t need a manual to know how to put one foot in front of the other and get by.

And one other thing. I have observed that by and large, the community here also exhibits a high level of competency in the face of myriad problems. I think we all deserve a drink!

Today I made three very different (for me) teapots. One tall one and two squat ones. I hope they turn out well!

My car and my computer on the same day! Yea! Enough to live on for one more month.

But tonight I managed to get my crazy dog to come in from the cold! He’s sleeping by the fire. :-)