i want to be a better partner

I feel like he doesn’t appreciate me and takes me for granted so i get angry and cant express myself to him because he doesnt seem to understand what he does. As i cant communicate with him about these issues, my anger builds up and i take it out on him by either snapping, being moody, sulking, any sort of negative behaviour that i think will affect him. I do these things and he doesnt understand why, he asks me what is wrong and do the typical female thing and act as if im ok. This frustrates him because clearly something is wrong, he then begins to sulk and i end up feeling guilty and trying to make up with him.
I know the only way we can sort this is by talking but it just seems to me that he twists everything to make it sound like the situation is better than it actually is or makes me seem like i am overeacting.
I dont know how this can be fixed, i am moody and sometimes have no reason to be so but still end up taking out how i feel on him. Its totally unfair and i would like to change but realistically know that it will take a lot more than a couple of conversations.
Maybe its a graudual thing, or maybe me and him are not meant to be together like that. I am so confused, if it cannot be fixed within the next 3 months then i think i will have to give it up, because we only just started going out and this should be the honeymoon period. I’ll have to wait and see.

I have started to trust him and talk to him more. It turns out whining =/= talking! Who knew! I have found now that I open up and share my feelings we have a much better relationship.

this goal needs to be completed to prevent further happenings of my past relationship.

straight to the point: the harder i try and the more effort i put into being a better partner, the worse things get and the more i become a bad partner.

i make stupid mistakes because prior to doing something (i believe) there isnt anything negative that culd realy come out of it… (and im very wrong) and then it turns out really bad and the things i try and do to improve as a gf cause further deterioration within the relationship and further degrade myself as a partner.

sigh

working

im difficult to live with and im very moody..
i have such a special “love” and i pretty much take out all of my crap on him..not fair…