be happy

they talk about living for the moment, enjoying the moment, well as of this moment, right now, 2:33 p.m. November 20, 2009. I am not arguing with anyone on the phone, two excellent cats are sleeping on the same couch next to me, I am clean, warm, content, waiting for lunch to finish cooking (yum, oven cooked spicy pasta goodness).

Tis a nice moment in time.

This afternoon at work I just started to cry. I just felt sad for people ! It is like when I see someone who needs help & if I can’t do anything, I get distressed & don’t know what to do. So I just send them blessings & angels to help them in some way.

I feel so unhappy when I see people who are perhaps struggling, myself included at times, yet I am trying to get my own life together yet I feel selfish at times for trying to work on my own goals, situation & happiness etc. I feel that there is such an imbalance in the world & I don’t know how to fix it.

I am going to donate all my clothes that I don’t need of which I was going to sell at the markets, but will give to charity for those who perhaps need them more than I do. I do donate to wwf every month, not much but some, because I hadn’t been working for such a long time, and I hesitate just now due to the recession in a way & also I am not 100% certain with my job. But maybe that is everyone. Nothing is ever set in stone so…

I just can’t justify when I see clothing or perfumes for sale at these high prices & then there are people who don’t have even enough for food ! I just can’t handle the imbalance. Where has this come from & why are some so much more fortunate than others. Isn’t there enough for everyone ?

I am sending love, light & blessings to everyone in the world & to nature so that eveyone has a beautiful christmas & that they be blessed & happy.

Stressed again. But I know the changes happening are for the better so I guess all moves towards love so…

I got a bit distressed at work today because the operations manager mentioned how a pt worker in the Sydney office got laid off in just a day because she was casual. Made me wonder about my own situation at work. I am not really concerned though because even if I got laid off, I know that my angels are there for me & then it is what is meant to happen…so I pray for myself at my job & that if I am meant to stay on then so be it, if not then so be it too !

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I went for a walk with my dog. I just didn’t want to go to gym because I am finding it stressful actually. I get distressed with the loud music & I guess being in an office all day I want to take fresh air into my lungs when I exercise. I might just go sometimes but reconsider my gym membership ? Not sure just yet though. It is more that I think walking gives me more peace of mind seemings I never meet anyone at the gym, although that is myself not opening up too so ?

I will see when I have more energy & feel a bit less distressed.

I didn’t go for my massage today either. But that is because I feel uncomfortable going during the day in a rush at work in my break. I will book in times at the college on saturdays for next year when the student clinic starts up again. That way I am not stressing going there, well, rushing, then having to rush back to work.

I was so determined to cancel facebook this afternoon, but didn’t. I think I am trying to find some sort of release or something ???? I don’t know ! I think I have read that facebook is more about the numbers of friends you have but not the quality. I have written letters to some of my ‘so called’ friends who contacted me asking how I was etc, going to the trouble to write a long letter to these ‘friends’ & then not even getting a reply. I asked some nice genuine questions about how they are, what they’re doing, their plans etc….but no reply. Maybe they just didn’t have the time to write back. Facebook seems to be very quick notes & then just what you are doing very briefly from day to day. Facebook seems to be banned in alot of workplaces though ? It is banned in China too ?

Going to meditate & find a solution to my situation…especially my living situation & with my parents etc

I’m not that happy today, but I’m trying to give small smiles.

I was at work today & my mum was nearly in an accident & I nearly hit a cyclist ! So bizarre….????

I think these sort of things are wake up calls to stay in the present moment.

I don’t feel happy at all today ? Not exactly sure why. Noisy neighbours so I had to call the police because I had to work the next day & it was 2am in the morning ! This has been happening for quite some time so hope they have some courtesy for other people & keep down the noise !

I don’t feel connected at times. It is like I don’t feel positive at times because I am so tired. I just want to sleep.

I picked out a spiritual card which says that the Universe has heard my prayers & they will soon be answered. I have to trust & pray & I am to expect a pleasant surprise in the next few weeks ? Wonder what that could be ? Hmmm

I also picked out a card that said my true devine nature is emerging. Angelic forces are at work behind the scenes & will guide me…this is atleast reasurring & helpful.

I know I need sleep etc…

http://irishsoccerinsider.wordpress.com/2009/11/11/french-and-irish-fall-out-over-box-incident/

O hai water on the moon! Thinking about this has been adding a little bounce to my step for the last few days. I’m not one to get psyched up about science, but the idea is just plain exciting.
Science fiction, meet science fact.

i want to be happy :)

i like the uglypeople.se site

they are an inspiration, although not always pleasant too look at they exist.

honestly, i am happy.
but it sucks sometimes. and i want to always be able to look on the bright side. And when i am happy, and i’ve just spent the day doing what i love with the people i love – then i can look on the bright side, and see that it is all worth it.

so i love my life.
most if the time.