be happy

sometimes I forget…
pax
FF
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If you guys really want to be happy, especially with your life, do whatever makes you happy. Wether it is going for a walk, listening to music, going on a trip, making a new friend, changing your hairstyle, changing your style of clothing or even just sit on your bum all day. :)

Do whatever makes you happy. :)

Today is not all that great. As a matter of fact I have not had a really good laugh today. Depression started setting in yesterday afternoon. I have been trying my hardest to keep it from consuming me, think I am doing an allright job. Outwardly I seem like everything is fine, but inside I am falling apart. My mother-in-law got me this book on depression…”Sunbathing in the Rain” is what it is called…and everytime that I feel my world is crashing in on me and my depression is the strongest I open that book up and start reading about the authors experiences with her depression. I think that it is doing wonders. I dont read it unless I am depressed and that way I have something to turn to when I am depressed….so I am only about 1/3 of the way through.

Well I could just go on and on about this subject, but it is about time to get to bed so that is enough for now. Hoping and praying for a better day tomorrow.

A Man and Woman Argued

After my husband and I had a huge argument, we ended up not talking to each other for days.

Finally, on the third day, he asked where one of his shirts was.

“Oh,” I said, “So now you’re speaking to me.”

He looked confused,

“What are you talking about?”

“Haven’t you noticed I haven’t spoken to you for three days?” I challenged.

“No,” he said, “I just thought we were getting along.”

I was reading this book called “Happier” and it suggested to increase one’s happiness they should create rituals. Most of the time we say we’re going to do something that makes us happy but it slips off into obscurity when things get in the way. The best thing to do is really dedicate time to doing things that make you happy like make every Friday night Comedy movie night or Saturday afternoon as explore the city time. Do whatever makes you happy. What’s important is you create the ritual and takes the time to actually do it. I started my “happiness” rituals and it has worked out amazing for me. Little changes can go a long way.

This is pretty much the ultimate goal, huh.

Other things “I’ve done” all contribute to this; straight edge, zen, spending more time with friends, etc.

Still, I need to be happy for the long haul, not just for certain moments when things go right. Cure, not go into remission. I know there will be bad times always, but I strive to handle it with perfect grace someday. I’d like to have no regrets.

Getting close, I will say that. I’m still young.

Happiness always seemed like a myth to me. I never thought I would be happy nor that I deserved to be. Thankfully, life has changed and happiness is a reality. Now it is mine to lose not just some crazy thing other people talk about!

YAY that my telephone is fixed!

A few days without my house phone working.
But it’s better now!

The phone company was really nice about it too!

To achieve this goal I have to stop depending on other people for my happiness and start depending on God for my happiness.

I know now that the only possible way to truly be happy is through the love of Jesus Christ. After realizing and living that….everything just kind of falls into place.