live in peace

I’ve been feeling rushed, impatient and overstimulated. I am realizing that part of it is that I feel that I have no personal, quiet space.
I do love my office, but it is not a good place to do paperwork, and once I am done working with patients, I just want to go. and the recent water leak/construction debacle has strained already awkward interaction with my landlord.

and home hasn’t been so peaceful either. they have been building an addition next door all summer…aagh, even on weekends. and my housemate/landlord likes everything to be “just so” (and she is celiac, so flour isn’t allowed in the house, and bread/pasta are even a big deal), so I never really feel at home.

I am realizing that this is a problem, not only for my peace of mind, but also in terms of getting stuff done. I don’t have the space or mindset to work when I am feeling restless.

what to do about it is another matter. compared to what’s out there, the office is a bargain, and I do love the location, the natural light and the space itself. maybe turning on music would help change my frame of mind? maybe pulling up the blinds, too (need to talk to todd again about replacing them).

home? moving doesn’t make sense just yet, because rent is cheap, it is a great neighborhood, and I do get along with my housemate/landlord. I’d like to stay at least another 6 months, until M. comes out to California. the construction will be going on, as far as I can see, easily another month, so warm days on the deck are out. I would like to find an outdoor spot, with a picnic bench and a view, quiet, no wind, and not too far away. and something indoors, quiet, close, good hours for when it starts getting cold.

I want to build enough determination to save money to buy a vehicle and get my drivers license. Then i would like to eventually become a supervisor at my workplace.

is to be free, to find my truth.

By: Saskia Davis

Be on the lookout for symptoms of inner peace. The hearts of a great many people have already been exposed to inner peace, and it is possible that people everywhere could come down with it. Under the right circumstances, inner peace could reach epidemic proportions. This situation could pose a serious threat to what has, up to now, been a fairly stable condition of conflict in the world.

Some signs and symptoms of inner peace:

• A tendency to think and act spontaneously, rather than on fears, which are based upon past experience.
• An unmistakable ability to enjoy each and every moment.
• A loss of interest in judging other people.
• A loss of interest in judging yourself.
• A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others.
• A loss of interest in conflict.
• A loss of the need and even the ability to worry. (Please Note: This is a very serious symptom.)
• Frequent, almost overwhelming, episodes of appreciation and gratitude.
• Frequent attacks of smiling.
• An increasing tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen.
• An increased susceptibility to feeling the love extended by others as well as the uncontrollable urge to extend it back.
• An unmistakable feeling that everything is okay.

Warning: If you have some or all of the above symptoms, please be advised that your condition of inner peace may be so far advanced as to not be curable. If you are exposed to anyone exhibiting any of these symptoms, remain exposed to that individual only at your own risk. Inner peace is contagious.

Spend time reflecting and not be rushed and worried. Just peaceful…

cause who doesnt

Life would long vacation in a serene retreat. Oh! What bliss. No grouses against anybody!

i wish to live with peoples of the peace

she doesn’t live far from wilson, so she picked me up, to go across town to the yoga tree in the castro. she drives like a crazy woman. guess that comes from doing sales, but she drove, talked on the phone, put on lip gloss and sang along with alicia, all at once.
grateful to get there in one piece…wondering how she keeps it all together, how we all keep it together, we get to class with about 150 other disciples. she went in early to stake out some real estate, then a mad rush to check in.
now, hurry up and relax. very groovy class, and type A down to the chanting.
i had this moment, during shivasana, when i thought…this could be a scene in the movie of my life, our lives. trying to find peace, the only way we seem to know how. in a place other than “here”, from someone other than “me”, spending money to find it. and bonus!! all the trendy hipsters do it, too.
after class, another mad rush across the city, get ready to go out for friday night.
peace out.

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!