It’s 17:26pm and as i sit here watching murder she wrote and journalling, i reflect on my day. After being woken up at 5pm by the roof caving in, i’ve not got too much done today. I feel so unrested considering how much time off i’ve had this week. I’ve got to call the insurance company but aren’t sure if i should touch the plasterboard incase it has aspestos in it. I’m sure i have been somewhat effected by it if this is the case. My cat also decided to jump in it this morning.
I also managed to stub my toe which was throbing the entire night.It was lovely though to speak to my boyfriend who is away at a poker tournament. Despite our troubles we have had lately due to him wanting to spend time with his ex girlfriends, i’ve missed him dearly. I wasn’t too comfortable with him spending his evening with the other women poker players, but i do trust him.
The bunnies are running around the hutch this morning. They have opened their eyes and are so fluffy and cuddly. I really love spending time with them, but have decided the next course of action is neutering. I’ve a problem with the bins at the moment due to the quantity of waste they produce also and i find that one collection a week is not enough.
I think it’s good that i feel this disatisfaction in all areas of my life at the moment, it means that there is room for me to improve and grow vastly to the next level of psychology and understanding. My finances, my business life, my spiritual life, relationships and my health are all on the verge of capzising. However i’ve decided today to take a real look at where things are going and what my plan is for myself so that i can improve each of these areas.
Last night i spent with my sister. It was good to meet up with my dad and have a beer and to have chinese with my sister and her boyfriend. We watched news of the world and the night was rushed to an end with my mother wanting me to leave so she could get an early night. My sister has invited me round again tonight, but i’m so lacking in energy. I can bearly be bothered to move. I’m struggling with the housework at the moment and the building is falling down.
I’ve suffered another personal tradedy the other evening and i dont’ think that there is much else that could go wrong, unless they repossess my house and make me bankrupt. Despite this weight on my shoulders, i’m still fighting on. Although alot of my books will tell me that i need to practice the law of least effort, not the law of most resistance! It’s a struggle when you feel so alone in things. I’ve missed writing on 43 things and pursuing my goals and keeping them in mind and i think this is really important in life to keep things on an even keel and my base line of hapiness where it should be.
My friend who i’ve been working with has now got a job so i need to get a dvd player so that i can play my office cd and work 9-12 noon which is the only time i have available at the moment due to my other full time job. I do however have wednesdays off to get a full day in where required. I’m sure that i can get a contract in this month, but it’s hard when i’m feeling so down in myself.
I am grateful however that i still have my house, for my kittens who are a constant source of joy, the man in my life whom i love with all my heart who always comforts me and makes me feel secure even when we are struggling with things. I’m lucky my brother is staying with me helping with the mortgage and i’m looking forward to my friends birthday party shortly. It will be nice to get out of the house and socialize some. 4 years ago