Amatet is feeling really grateful for all the miricles in my life
Reflecting on the last week... — 1 month ago
It’s 21:42pm and i’ve just finished having a steak with mashed potatoes and veg and gravy watching spider man i’m so grateful for my life. One of my kittens is sat near me contently on the sofa. I’m so lucky to be surrounded by my animals. They are so soothing to have in my presence. They are so precious to me. I’m feeling a little overwhelmed with things lately, but they keep me calm and bring out my loving nature. I love caring for them.
Things on my mind at the moment is how i’m going to pay the mortgage this month. I don’t have the money based on my salary i have coming in at the moment. Although i have enquired about some loans. Alot has happened since i last wrote my journal. Last tuesday i started a new job working in insurance for some extra money coming in. I managed to be offered the job on the spot, on the friday before when i went for it. The interview was very successful even though i had to do a maths test, my worst subject. The last week has been training on the subject. I felt a little disheartened that i’ve had to go back to work as i really wanted to make the business work in a shorter timescale. Although of course the business does make money, it’s not at the level i wanted at this time, so i’ve had to take other measures.
A few days before i missed a job working in a warehouse from 10-6am. I decided this would be a good idea as i can work 9-5 on the business and then 10pm to 6 at a job so i can cover the mortgage and my secured loan. Sitting here i realise that i have problems, but that problems are a sign of life. I have a greater quality of problem now than i had when i was living at my dads. When i was living at my dads, my problem was that i didn’t want to have to get a job and found it difficult to get to my horse-care course on time. Now it’s that my outgoings are enormous and i can’t afford to buy my horse outright and i’m possibly going to have to get a loan to finance me, some more time running my business. I’m very grateful for all that i have around me. To be able to get my house last year was a dream come true and i intend to hang on to it no matter what.
At the moment i’m living day to day and week to week as each month is so important to me to do the right way. Currently my finances do allow me to pay the mortgage this month, but not much else. Only really my travel. I also have the prospect of a loan which can help with other things and i’ll get my salary at the end of the month, so i still have time to get the business thriving. A month should be more than enough time. My plan for the business is to get one client a week which should be enough to support me, worst case senario, i need to get one client for the month, which will mean i can’t pay my data and have to do my own research, but it’s viable.
Yesterday was great. My boyfriend and i met his mum and brother to go to the races. We put some bets on the horses. Only one of mine won and we had some food and watched madness play live which was absolutely fantastic. It was good to be held lovingly by my boyfriend whilst we danced to the music. The atmosphere was fabulous. Although i didn’t like it when people threw beers forward. It’s a good job the cans were made out of plastic. The music was outstanding. We ended up walking home, me in my bare feet as i was in pain from my heals, we stayed at our friends until a taxi came to pick us up at 3am. It reminded me how much i want to be working with horses seeing them race. It’s my passion to work with horses- although i love that i have my own animals in this house to care for.