find someone who really understands!

I suppose over the years, i have found myself scared of men. as a young child even; men have been impossible for me to handle and i’ve decided that my unlucky ability to attract the wrong men has followed me even through high-school. the boys i find are like rocks in the road, hiding the light from a flower reaching towards the sun. they’re impossible for me. Im not sure if its because i care too much; i show too much love for people, or maybe it’s because im not pretty enough… but either way, i just want a guy i can trust, be free in front of… be myself with… rather than worry what they are about to think…