Tree is studying and exploring.
I was so dead set on getting the MRUP degree, and I still find the field fascinating; however, I always find myself returning to music. So, I think my goal should be to get the MM degree and return to being a piano teacher. I miss it so badly. It was the only time in my life I felt really whole, really vocationally fulfilled.
It’s scary to get a master’s degree in music. It won’t necessarily lead to a well-paying job with benefits. Yet, I feel like if I don’t push myself as far as I can with my music, I’ll always feel a gnawing regret. I’m already grieving over giving up my piano teaching business. It only took a year to really sink in how much I lost when I stopped doing what I love for a living. I have to hold down a day job in university administration until my husband finishes school, but after that, I’m going to be a teacher again.
Needless to say, I’m giving up on the Urban studies goal.
