make more of an effort with my friends

I’m bad with making new friends, and bad at keeping the friends I have. Mostly it’s a convenience thing – the friends I’m surrounded by on a daily basis stay in my life…those who I see less frequently just end up out of the picture. I’m suprised only 6 peeps are doing this…

I realised that i really do make an effort with my friends, i can be unreliable but whenever someone really needs to talk to me i’m always there. I’ve helped so many of my friends this week, just listening to their problems and i’m always happy to do that so i think i do make an effort. I think the only reason i thought i didn’t was because i don’t do it in the same way as others. I just don’t feel the need to be at every event, every party, every gathering, i’m not good company when i’m tired anyway.

I love my friends, i really do, but sometimes i just can’t be bothered with them or sometimes i just can’t be bothered in general. It’s not that i don’t want to make the effort to get dressed etc. it’s just i can’t be arsed to actually leave my house, even if someone were to pick me up or come and meet me, i don’t really know what that’s about. Anyway, i should make more of an effort, i complained about missing them whilst in Uni and since i’ve been back over the Christmas break i’ve barely seen them! Grr, i’m annoying.

I’m lazy, this is the main problem. I’ve known this for ages, and I always complain during holidays that I never do anything with my friends and rah rah rah. Obviously, even though when I do do things with them – it’s organised by someone else. Friendship is a two-way street, and I should make more of an effort to organise things to do – whether it be going to the cinema or a Sunday lunch.