confess my secrets

I was with an older man when I was way too young
I never really loved my ex bf
I’m still not sure what I’m studying is what I want to do for the rest of my life
I do not feel love for my father
I hate being lonely

Ok i have many many secrets and i want to say a few and see any1’s advice on em
1.My Love of my life doesn’t know i love him and we rnt even goin out and all the time he is always so sweet and gentleman like and rarley asks for sex (which i dont want) and i havent told ANYONE i love him.
2.I hate my all my friends
3.My Stepmom acts so nice and i hate her woth a passion
4. i havent told my mom or dad or Stepmom that im NOT a Christian anymore.

HELP MEEEEEEE

i drink to pretend i can forget about him

Now my life is so much better!! I must keep some things for myself though.. wouldn´t want people to know everything.. :P

used to be the skinnyest in primary school and now I have a BMI of 15.9 but I still feel like i’m too big because one of my frends is skinnier than me

My beztest frend changd. I preferd her be4.

had my first kis wiv a guy i knew for like 30 minuts

thouh he’s moved on and has another girlfriend I always find excuses to ‘acidentaly’ bump into him

-im not a virgin
-i [used to] slit my wrists
-i manipulate guys for drugs
-my father beat me
-i blame him for all of this
-i blame GOD for him!

_{p.s.- im only 16 and this has been true for a few years.}

My secrets are many, I have so many that I probably will never confess them all. But the one that bugs me the most is the fact that my parents only think they know who I am…when really they don’t. My parents don’t know that I was raped,and I will probably never tell them, because they don’t need to know, it was a long time ago. The sad part is that I live a lie every day. My whole life is a lie…and I wish it wasn’t…