stay in love

I gave my best to this relationship & now I think it’s ending…

I’m opening myself to the beautiful experiences that will follow in my life. Even so – the tears are there.

I’m looking forward to not crying anymore!

I broke up with him because the love I felt for him just went away…

I thought love doesn’t go away, so maybe it’s wasn’t true.
The only time I could ever recall staying love for a long fucking time, thoroughly was 4 years ago but he’s gone.

But everything after that and before that, I just couldn’t stay in love. I just couldn’t, it won’t fucking stick. Like my mind rejects him after a while and I involuntarily lose interest. No matter how hard I try to choose or will it, it won’t take and then I’ll feel like I’m living a lie and lying to him and I hate hate lying.
Unless I’m no where near my “one” or I’ve got some severe issues.

Either way, I don’t know why this is and most of all, I’m sick of this happening to me. I’m officially admitting that I am unstable and weak in the heart and am staying away from relationships for a while and find someway to work on me.

I hope NONE of you have this problem like I have, its the worst feeling in the world to feel like you’re incapable of truly falling in love anymore. I wish you all have the most successful relationships and experience a love that goes beyond the the stars. If I can’t have it for myself, I most definitely want that for all of you.

Take care,
Maddy

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  Don’t wait, express your love right now!
  Don’t worry, be happy
  Don’t gloat when you are right
  Don’t sulk when you don’t get your way
  Don’t make the same mistake twice
  Don’t spend your prime time watching TV
  Don’t interrupt when she/he is talking
  Don’t take one another for granted
  Don’t hold grudges
  Don’t let your mind wander during conversations
  Don’t wait for your partner to read your mind
  Don’t be judgemental
  Don’t leave lovemaking until just before sleeping
  Don’t make love the same way every time
  Don’t be afraid to share your feelings
  Don’t try to change your partner

the title says it all about me. why is love so confusing?!

Haha that would also help to a good start I guess. Although it’s not my issue! maybe I should rather put down “want women to know what they want” HA! Too bad that’ll never happen right?! I smell somthing burning… Hopfully NOT the building I’m in….

I’m 17 and I’ve been with my boyfriend for almost 4 years now and to tell you the truth, there have been many times in which I’ve questioned the sanity of it all, so
tip 1: Keep the bigger picture in mind and never forget what’s important to you.
We’ve been ‘separated’ by an ocean (literally), mistrust, unfaithfulness, personal issues, so
tip 2: If you’ve got a long distance relationship, send REAL letters, care packets and keep in contact often. Talk things out when your distance is not physical. Practice patience.
He is my best friend and the man I want to start a family with. Despite everything, we’ve always been there for each other and would be empty without out each other.
It helps to have common goals, that way, you’ll never lose sight of what the hell you’re doing.
Instead of just acknowledging his flaws, find them cute, that’s what I do. It just comes naturally, but you never know how things might turn out if you just change your perspective on things.
One Last Big Tip: No pain, no gain :)

It’s so much easier when you’re starting out. Oh how lovely it is…those first kisses, holding hands under the moonlight, romantic walks on the beach, camping together for the very first time, sharing a bottle of wine, these are all memories I cherish fondly of me and Bri.
4 years down the line though will have you seeing things other than romance however. Fighting, arguing, crying, cursing him out, kicking him out, frustration, geez!!! Sometimes I wonder if it’s all worth it.
But should we expect perfection from our significant others? No. I know I’m not perfect. And relationships take work to make them work. I’m happy where I’m at.
When you’ve been with someone for this long, it takes a little more work to keep things alive! But that’s why we do a lot of things together to bond over, like staying up late at night baking cupcakes from scratch, or like sitting in front of our fire pit on a nice night, talking all hours of the night. Somehow we’re making this work. And we’re doing alright.

I might give up on this goal. Should you have to try to stay in love? I’m not so sure nowadays. I’ve rolled with enough of the punches of this relationship, so now I think I might prefer just to… See how it goes, or something. I’ve come to the conclusion finally, that much as I love this person, if it ends, it’ll be for the right reasons, I will have done my very best, and most importantly of all: I will be okay.

It’s so easy for me to fallout of love. This guy is amazing and I’m still in love with him 6 months down the track. He makes me so happy I don’t want to give up on us. Now I just ride out the feelings when I get bored or feel trapped and they pass being replaced again by the intense feelings of love and desire for him. It’s about riding out those moments went I might want to leave, knowing they are only temporary feelings brought on most often by stress and other situational factors and not him.

I really dig him and hope it lasts a long time.