be fabulous

I am I am fabulous. Well, a fabulous employee that is.
I got a raving review at my annual evaluation. Both my bosses praised me to no end and gave me super high score. NOw to find out what my bonus will be but in the meantime. Fabulous worker – check

Fabulous friend is progressing well. I know I have been down in the dumps for a while and most friends have been truly supportive. Its now time to show them my appreciation.

And I have to be fabulous wife. Which I think I am in the grand scheme of things. However I know he things I nag too much and will try and tone it down a little (although if he did his chores I wouldnt have to)

I added this goal a few months back and pushed the thoughto f pursing this due to the depressive state and all the problems that arose from my injury. Now that I am gradually healing and getting back to life – even back at work, I want to realyl try and get to the point where I feel fabulous.
I wil strive to be a fabulous co-worker/employee, a fabulous wife and a fabulous girlfriend.

I have been this before, I just need to get back. I know I am already a fabulous daughter and a fabulous sister.

Half way there to being fabulous, it feels bloody good!

when do you know if you are fabulous?

is it your own personal, probably delusional/narcissistic opinion that is valued or when others make it clear that you are fabulous and wonderful from their perspective? or is it when you decide yes you are fabulous and then others just get swept up in your confidence and agree?

whatever the truth is, I want to feel fabulous all the time and I definitely used to…now I just need to believe it again every day.

hah!

The question is – how do I do this?

The trick was remembering how to feel fabulous. I didn’t believe in myself enough for a while, but suddenly I feel spectacular again. I just have to be more mindful of my feelings at a given moment, and that seems to be the key.

I have trouble reconciling my desire to be “fabulous” with my belief that I’m spectacular just as I am and don’t need special clothes or makeup to be “good enough.” I’m trying to convince myself that I can just have fun with fashion and the like without “needing” it, but on some level it still feels like a betrayal of myself if I take that extra time to be…well, extra. My personality is definitely larger than life, but I have trouble looking the way I feel. I don’t know if this makes any sense at all…thoughts, anyone?

fabulousity: living out the person that you dream about in physicality, intelligence, attitude, confidence, entourage, and finaces.

what i want:
the person that i have dreamt up is fit and toned, on the athletic side, vibrant, slim, world traveler with a serious hustle going on, entrepreneur, well-read, extremely attractive, sexy, owner of the latest Jimmy Choos, girlfriend of high profile and/ or successful men, entourage of best friends with one or two high profilers, financial secure and self-sufficient.

where i am now:
flabby college student pulling an all nighter with bags under eyes, haven’t stepped on a treadmill in a looong time, has one pair of dress shoes, has business ideas, but hasn’t started the business, had a celeb boyfriend (in china) but broke up with him (not necessarily trying to get back with him, but would like to meet a guy with similar status or success level), intelligent, can speak three languages, well-read, business-minded, friendly, tired, not vibrant, doesn’t feel sexy, no close friends in a 100-mile vicinity, in debt, no job, reliance on parents.

what’s keeping me back:
insomnia, lack of real focus, feelings of self-doubt, fear of success. also laziness.

what im going to do today:
try and get some sleep and feel better tomorrow morning. but write out more in depth my goals on fabulousness.

BTW, if you ever wanna feel fabulous, or suddenly forget how to be fabulous, just check out www.pinupgirlclothing.com for some fab insperation.

I bought some sexy underwear, got a new hair cut and had got asked out this week.

I feel fabulous. hehe