after the car show by the ocean with his buddies today.
As always, really nice to see him. We seem to be surprisingly comfortable with each other (gosh, we’ve only been seeing each other “again”, like, 9 or 10 months)
There was a whisper sweet moment that was barely audible where we sort of each declared we weren’t seeing anyone else.
and another “interesting” moment where I was telling about the house right on the ocean bluff, but that room needed a year’s commitment and I laughed saying “and you know, I can’t make a commitment, so that was out” He said “where do you think that comes from?” I said “the divorce”. “you were hurt” he said “but you’ve healed from that now” “I have?” I said in a quite curious voice. “I’ll have to look deep down and see.” 1 week ago
for today. It simply wasn’t possible to see him today. It was an interesting dialogue (text) exchange.
I look forward to the day when I have a great relationship with someone. I wonder if Ironman will ever be available? 2 weeks ago
from the artist today.
I would like to see him, but begging doesn’t make sense. 3 weeks ago
I don’t think our conversation has ever had so much laughter in it. Is he finally beginning to loosen up? =P 1 month ago
would embrace Valentine’s day. 3 months ago
for awhile. It was nice.
I can see passes more slowing in my life than in his.
I also think that now I am more….. relaxed about time frames of communications or seeing each other. I think I have settled in to it being what it is and if I can be comfortable with that it will be nice enough.
Still not boyfriend status. But definitely seeing each other. kinda. 3 months ago
sent me a text early this morning. How nice was that? 3 months ago
for a movie and a walk around the lake this afternoon. It will be good to go for a walk. It will be good to be out in the fresh air. 3 months ago
Having become accustomed to Wednesdays with The Artist, and not having seem him for the 3rd Wednesday tonight, I am glad I am simply sad, but not devastated. Everything has its own rhythm and time. Clearly we are not in sync. 3 months ago
it is going to be by magic. or the stars aligning perfectly in the universe.
or maybe me losing a thousand pounds. sigh….. 3 months ago
apparently not on the horizon I can see.
The nice thing is that you can’t really see everything on the horizon. 3 months ago
He came over after work. I can tell his 12 hour work days leave him tired. It’s always so nice to see him though.
I can tell that he thinks about what I’ve said, or not said, by the way he said “I never really got an answer from you on if you like sushi.” Yep. Each time he’s asked if I like sushi and we could go to that restaurant…. I’ve always just said “that’d be nice” or somethings else agreeable. Seriously? I don’t like crab and that is in an awful lot of sushi roll things. I do like maguro, as it’s simply tuna. So I DO eat sushi. He was so nice in observing that I might not like sushi and he discussed it and suggested we go to the olive garden. I had us go to sushi, of course. I just want him to be happy and I know I will be perfectly happy too.
Dinner was nice, but it did feel very “date-ish”. It was …. not really uncomfortable, but it wasn’t as cozy as dinner at my house is. We talked well enough. We talked about just stuff. I am pretty comfortable with him. I can tell I trust him but the things I am willing to share with him.
It was really, really nice someone took me out to dinner. Not just took me out, but bought me dinner. How nice was that?
I like the time I spend with him. I am looking forward to spending more time with him. I hope I get to. 4 months ago
The Artist is coming over to take me OUT to dinner and visit for the evening. Feels like a “date”. He was just over Saturday night.
Right. Stop Thinking. Stop Analyzing. Simply show up, have a good time and don’t even think about the future. It can’t be predicted any how.
plus… this is the year of Letting Go! yippee4 months ago
and quickly tried to stop him mind from ping ponging where it might be going.
you know i am selling my house. (yes)
you know i will buy a house. (yes)
what if its in Xville. (where is that? he said)
a bit north and inland of the furthest town in our county. (oh, way out there. it’s doable, he said)
how nice of him was it to say that? that i it wasn’t too far away to still be seeing me. naturally, i turned this silly….
what if i moved to …. (los angeles would be a bit far he said)
how about…. (that town an hour closer would be hard, he said)
what about that town 90 minutes away? i asked (it would be a bit far, but possible)
i eased this down saying i was looking within 5-7 miles of this house.
it was unexpected that he was so willing to drive all the heck over the place to see me. Seriously. I have very narrow limits for how far I am willing to drive….. for any one or any thing. I didn’t mention this though. Just in case he has a move in his future and just doesn’t know it yet.4 months ago
The Artist came over for dinner. He brought champagne, which was very festive. It is always a nice evening.
He suggested that next week we go to a restaurant near me and we could make it a longer visit. It was nice. To be going out instead of staying in. I guess serving the same thing for dinner giggle was a good idea after all!
Things are pretty comfortable. But, definitely not lives intertwined in any way much at all. Still, nice and I’m glad to have these moments. I still chant “show up, have a good time and try not to predict the future” to myself. 4 months ago
The Artist didn’t even text Merry Christmas. (So I didn’t either) 4 months ago
while i’m enjoying any time spent with The Artist, there isn’t a fullfillment of this goal.
Maybe 2013 our sporadic time together will develop into mire connectedness. 4 months ago
How nice is that? 5 months ago
this relationship. Just as it is. Just letting it be and become whatever it will or won’t become.
I’m more comfortable that it can simply continue…. without pushing or shoving or prodding or nudging… but simply by letting it be.
It’s nice. For what it is. It’s nice. 5 months ago
The Artist tonight.
Lots of road trip talk, of course.
And how there won’t be sonic boom testing in the ocean so we can save not only the whales, but all the sea life. (Soooo glad everyone came to their senses over this while I was away!)
He said it’s really nice to alone with you. (no roommates, teenagers or wayward pets he meant.) It came out kinda funny and made me laugh. 5 months ago
from the artist.
But that other guy messages me almost every day to check on me. Which is nice.
and I hate that I like the artist better!5 months ago
The artist left me a voicemail this morning, lamenting me being gone and saying nice things…AND, perhaps more important to call him.
I did and we chatted about the trip so far. He send to call and check in and send photos. He’ll welcome me home the day i get back.
Gosh, its beginning to sound sort of….....cozyish.
it’s a trick! i just know it6 months ago
saying he was having a really busy week at work, but looked forward to the next time we got together.
That was nice of him to think of me. And to message when he did.
I confess I am nonplused, being as this is round three for us. I think I’m a bit (understatement) of a skeptic this go round. I hope this doesn’t turn into another Surfer thing. Where he wants to… how did the surfer put it? Take our relationship to the next level…. and I don’t. I hope if he does… I do! 6 months ago
that The Artist said he would miss me when we were talking about my road trip. 6 months ago
this is ….peaking my interest.
The Artist came over for dinner. I barely had time to get home and change my clothes before he arrived. I was a bit wound up, with the house offers events of the day and all. It was so great to have someone to talk to!
We are way more comfortable with each other now. I guess I am because I’m not “smitten” with him any more. Like round one and two. I like him, but I’m not that school girl smitten. I think I just settled in to being me without thinking about it because I’m not concerned how I am judged. If we never see each other again, I would notice it and be somewhat disappointed, but I’d move on pretty quickly.
Near the end of the evening he said “I like coming over here. I like the visiting we do. You’ve got stuff going on. I don’t my life is always the same. And it will be for awhile.”
Aw…. that was a nice thing to say. 6 months ago
I know it will be an enjoyable evening. It’s nice to dine with someone and have cozy conversation. Nice of him to make an effort to see me before I go out of town. 6 months ago
we’ll see what 2013 brings in to my life. i’m done dating until then. this was way too much work today. i can make conversation and even keep one going, but it’s way too much work to be the one of of two people doing so.
i’m not sutied to the silent types. ‘tell me about yourself.’
“oh, i said everything on my profile.” seriously? really?... sigh… 7 months ago
and now, with people coming to see the house, I have to be ready for the date “early” ..... and get the house “ready”.
giggling…. seriously? really? 7 months ago
I came home and found a text and a message from The Artist saying he had the day off and could bring me lunch.
....uhm…. really? =) Gracious. I thought we had a date to spend tomorrow evening together. It’s why I made a crock pot dinner for tomorrow. Roast and vegetables.
He seems to be spending an awful lot of time thinking about me. Which is nice. But, also odd and perplexing.
I know that “normally” one would be thrilled to pieces about this. BUT…. this is the THIRD time round here, so I am incredibly skeptical. Just sort of participating as entertainment rather than diving, both feet in, head over heals and all love sick and such. More just knowing this is what it is and it isn’t …. anything that has lasting substance.
Yay! for stranger I have a date with this weekend. Maybe that does? 7 months ago