accept what is

1) I’m lonely
2) I crave human, especially male, affection and attention.
3) Sometimes I crave that affection to an unhealthy degree.
4) The person that I want affection from is an inappropriate choice.
5) My imagination is usually a lot better than reality.
6) Consequences that I am unable and unwilling to deal with would occur if I made a choice to indulge my loneliness.
7) It is best if I just let these feelings enter me and then leave me, observing them and not acting on them.
8) It is okay to be lonely.
9) I can learn how to deal with feelings of loneliness.
10) I can do the Next Right Thing, and the NRT is to not act on my feelings of loneliness.
11) Right now, I will simply accept the fact that I am lonely.

1. My mom loves me.
2. My mom is frustrated by my behaviors.
3. My mom has unrealistic expectations for me that I do not always fulfill.
4. My mom has realistic expectations for me that I do not always fulfill.
5. My mom loves me no matter what, she can just show her frustration with me in unhealthy ways.
6. My mom is not perfect.
7. I am not perfect.
8. I have unrealistic and realistic expectations that she does not always fulfill.
9. I love my mom no matter what.
10. Sometimes I do not show my love and respect, but it is always there.
11. We can work through anything because we love each other.

1) A fellow is in love with me, but he is very sick in the head.
2) I have feelings for the fellow, probably because of the turbulent emotions that occurred when we were having an affair.
3) I’m not in love with him, but I’m not NOT in love with him, I care about him but I know that it’s a bad situation that I need to avoid.
4) He is an unhealthy person to associate with. He has minimal sobriety and is untrustworthy.
5) My mother and my sponsor asked me not to associate with him.
6) I’m resentful of that, but I know it’s for my own good and I am trying to respect their wishes.
7) I’m irritated though, and I want to kiss him and talk to him and all that stuff.
8) I just have to remember that it’s for my own good, that we are young and we had something, but that something is gone, and that what we had was sick.

ACCEPTANCE OF THE DAY: I do not need to be in a relationship to feel whole, worthy, and loved. Evidence of being worthy and loved is all around me, and I have friends and family who care about me. I do not need to alienate my mother, my sponsor, or my friends by indulging in fleeting emotions that are NOT directives. I can have feelings, experience them, and I do not have to act on them.

1) Not everybody likes me, even though I wish everybody did.
2) Some people are upset at me and that’s understandable, given my actions the past few weeks.
3) I can’t control what other people think, even though I try to by altering my actions and my conversation to try to “fit” theirs more closely. Mum says that’s normal, that everybody does that to adapt to their audience, but it doesn’t feel very genuine and I often feel like a little actor and I’m the director and the stage manager and all of that.
4) I can’t control what other people do, even though I try to with the people that I’m closest with – which only makes them upset at me, because I’m not very subtle about it.
5) I can’t control what other people say, but I try to influence it by withdrawing emotionally if they say something displeasing to me.

1) I did something wrong
2) I came clean
3) I am experiencing the consequences & am having difficulty accepting them, but I am accepting them
4) I am embarrassed, I am afraid

My family is not close. We never were, really. My mother kept everyone together. Since her death we rarely speak to one another. It bothers me. I need to accept that it is what it is! But, I am having difficult time doing that.

Received a very bad injury while he was training the other day. Mentally, he is doing great; always strong-willed and tenacious! Physically however, he will need to get rehabilitation services for a month, and it will be awhile until he is back to his normal, active self. As his wife, I am 100% there for him, and will do everything I can to take care of his needs so that his recovery is that much faster. We definitely won’t be living our normal routine for the next several months or so, but it’s okay! The main thing is that his injury isn’t worse, and will heal. These types of situations make couples closer in my opinion (if they’re truly bonded), and really test peoples’ character :D So far, so good!

Unfortunately I won’t be able to go with my husband on his business trip because my job couldn’t approve the time off (another co-worker is off during that time as well), but it’s really okay! I was a little disappointed at first when I found out several weeks ago, but my husband and I have decided that it’s a blessing because we’ll have that much more time to take off together this December when we go on vacation! Plus, he won’t be gone that long (we’ve been apart for longer periods in the past), and we wouldn’t have really had many chances to do things anyway since his trainings will be during the day. It will be another opportunity for me to take care of my needs while he’s away and anticipate a fun reunion when he returns, so it all works out for the best ;D

To practice this mantra recently! My family and I were supposed to go on this amazing excursion, and it had been planned out for awhile. However, something malfunctioned and it was called off. But we found something just as great to do, and recovered quickly from the initial disappointment. Besides, it only means that we will have yet another chance to do this activity later!

When I let go of a lot of my expectations, that’s when I began to just flow. Certain things can be controlled, but many things cannot. Why stress during these times? Some things can be questioned, but many are best to be accepted. I don’t need to know everything, or analyze life so closely. As long as I take care of my own life in the moment, my future will be bright :D