fall in stupid love again

but it is. I’d rather LIVE my life than not. It hurts a lot when it’s not going well. But if I never fell in love again I’d still be wondering if I could.

it’s just stupid to trust some people

I was going to post something similar to this

Maybe I should check this one off, do the things required, and experience/enjoy the ‘stupid’ part when it comes.

Let’s forget this idea of “stupid love”. All that phrase describes is the newness that comes with a new relationship. It doesn’t last, and it’s rediculous to base wether or not a relationship is sucessful or “right” on those kinds of feelings. It’s the partnership and the ability to maintain that and love someone for who they are, not what they might be or what they could be. It’s the willingness to help each other; be it with personal changes that need to be made or just with navigating the everyday pain and grime of life. It’s the willingness to deal with each other’s baggage and emotional scars, because let’s face it, as much as we try to avoid it, those things are carried from relationship to relationship.

I just don’t know. What ever happened to honesty and faithfulness? Appreciation of unconditional and forgiving love? I can tell you this. It’s not something you find more than once in a lifetime, and throwing it away because of fear or an inability to commit and remain faithful is even more a tragedy than never being able to experience real love at all.

my emotions are a huge lightswitch god switched off in 2003

hmm…are they a dimmer switch?

i’m the little kid who has to jump up to reach it and in turn only turns them all the way on or all the way off…

ok that was taking the metaphor WAY too far

Worth it, but but you must be willing to risk everything, and possibly risk yourself in the process.

maybe i just need therapy

making very good progress on this one….....may be checking this one off for good soon….

is if i feel like most of the songs on Ray LaMontagne’s record Trouble apply…

somedays i feel like some of my feelings have been robbed right out of my chest. i want that loopy stupid love again. i want to feel sure about someone again. is it me or them that’s killing this so far?