Trust in fate

I was devasted to learn that I did not get the college course I wanted. I know have no idea what I’m doing and am very sacred about my future. Trusting in fate is very hard right now.

..to continue to trust in this.

I am very scared about what will happen this Septemeber. This is the first year that what I will spend next year doing is uncertain. I have offically graduated and now I am in limbo. Or am I? Every day I spend deciding how to spend my day. Every day I make decisions that will shape my future. Every day I decide to keep breathing, keep living. My future is uncertain. But I have to trust in fate that whatever I get offered or don’t get offered will be my fate. I have options but fate lines up too. Fate will always throw challenges our way so that we can continue to learn and grow and mature from them.

The most amazing thing happened to me yestarday. I was round in a friends house and I had just mentioned stuff about college and how it was stressing me, because I have a interview in two weeks for a course, but I don’t want to start doing interviews so i’m going to pull out of the course whennnn I got a email!

The email was from this girl I had mailed ageees ago asking her about this course in a big college near enough to me and she told me about the course. It isn’t what I thought it was but is exactly what I’m looking for! It’s deadly, I have family living right beside the college, some of my best friends are applying for the same one. When I read the email I just proclaimed “There’s f*ing fate for you!

It’s just deadly, finally I have a course that I would properly consider doing if I decide to not take a year out. Yay!

This year is going to be a big challange. Close my eyes, leap off the ledge, and see where fate lands me.

I am applying for different college courses and doing interviews so I have to trust fate to see where it’ll guide me.

Take today for an example. I went to a college open day with a friend, we both ended up applying for the same course, the college was lovely, bright and new, only 30 mins away. I can’t help feelng colstrophobic about it now because the college was tinnnny! But that could just be because I am used to a school that is open plan. I am not sure at this point if I am just trying to find faults with it because it’s a big step and I’m scared.

So I have to leave it up to fate. I’ll throw all the paper planes and see which one glides…

I believe in fate/destiny beacause even though everone has “free will” to make decisions, i feel the decision they make is the one they were destined to, and if they change their mind it was part of the plan. im sure the fine lines of fate are blurry when it comes to very specific things, but i still believe that we cant change the ultimate outcome of a situation without that being the plan anyway.

that maybe there is such a thing as fate. I don’t want to believe in coincidences. In fact, I dont believe in coincidences. There is a reason that everything happens.

An Example is recently I applied for a babysitting job. I didn’t get it. A week later a new babysitting job that was closer to my house, easier to get to and with a lovely couple opened up and I got it. That is fate. Fate stopped getting the other job because it already had one lined up. A better one too :)

So I vow to trust in fate.