fall deeply in love

—helplessly and unconditionally!

I can’t wait to meet the one who will be my wife. I know she’s out there waiting just as I am. I wonder whether it will be a love at first sight thing, where I know she’s the one, or will it be only after building a solid friendship?

I’m hoping this will happen in the next few years. Sooner rather than later, I hope.

I thought i was in love, but hey Icarus thought he could fly and most of us know how that ended.

Where are all the decent men??? Every guy i meet either does drugs, drinks heavily or is known for being a cheat or whatever…Why cant i meet a gorgeous guy who works and drives and is my own age…is that too much to ask for? I am fed up with being alone but i will not lower my standards!

and i couldnt be happier.
We are celebrating our first anniversary of our first date this friday.
It is truly amazing :-)

Right now, I have other goals that are more important. I can’t go out looking for love. If it is meant to be, it will come when it should…

i need to do this.

i’ve fallen in love twice but i’m pretty sure it was just lust.

i want the real thing.

i’m pretty sure that everyone has that special someone out there though, they just need to find them.

I am married to a wonderful man. Sound strange that I might want to fall deeply in love? I love my husband, but I can’t say that I’ve ever been in love . I think being in love is a very strong emotion and I’ve never felt love that strong. Does that mean I don’t love? No… I do love, but I think there’s more that I’ve yet to feel and experience.

I was married once before and my ex cheated. It was a horrible experience for me at the time (not so bad now that I’m older and look back on it). Betrayal is probably the worst thing someone can live through because it’s a huge violation of trust.

I knew my ex for 5 years before we married (I was 21 when we married). I told him I thought we should wait a while longer – he pushed for marriage and to start a family. We were married 5 1/2 years when it ended. Our relationship was fine as far as I could tell. My ex had a great paying job, we had no financial worries, a small son we loved and adored, a large pool of good friends, we socialized often, and had few disagreements. To this day I don’t know what happened and why he cheated. Was I perfect? No one is, but if there was a problem it would have been nice if he would have discussed it with me instead of just throwing our relationship away for someone he met two weeks prior.

At the time, I didn’t know how I was going to make it without him in my life. The experience actually made me a stronger, more resourceful, person, so good did come of it. My biggest fear was in being alone and responsible for our small son when I never really totally learned to take care of myself – not that I was madly in love with him.

Well life went on… I got a decent job and a college degree. My son turned out to be a responsible, successful, hard working young man. Over the years I had several serious relationships and finally married my current husband in 2003. I’m fiercely independent and guard my feelings. I vowed to never again be in a position where I feel so helpless – and until I met my current husband, pushed men away when I felt I was getting too close.

So I have to ask myself if what I feel is enough or if I would want to fall deeply in love – to the point that if I lost the person I loved I would never be the same – which is what I’ve seen happen to several friends over the years.

The difference between my ex and current husband is that my current husband is very trustworthy and I am 99.9% sure he would never cheat (it would be foolish to say 100%). I would like to fall madly in love with my husband – and he deserves that kind of love – but I don’t know if I’m capable of those feelings. So far I’ve felt nothing stronger than what I’ve felt in the past – nothing overwhelming, no butterflies, no giddiness, no longing, no chills… just kind of flat line, the way it’s always been.

So I really don’t feel I’m capable of falling deeply in love at my age (48) since I haven’t already. But, it would be nice to feel that with my husband. He is such a caring, thoughtful man who does everything in his power to make me happy, and he deserves to be deeply loved.

This may seem shallow or stupid or the best thing you have ever heard. What ever you think…this is what I want to do. Wether it is here and now or 20 years from now. I don’t want to end my life as one of the people (I know far too many) who never find a love. Whatever it may be…I would much rather it be a love that lasts for a long time…but if it is for a few days, weeks, years… I would prefur years…but in the end you can not be picky.

He is everything, i am shocked i found someone liek him. So amazing, Falling in love without any reservations is the best thing i have ever done =)