stop taking life so seriously

It seems like evry time i turn around, there.s sumthin wrong & im tired of it. But im also tired of bein unhappy & holdin back. So, i feel like i should stop complainin in my mind or out loud & try 2 enjoy as much as i can, if i can…

I have health insurance until I’m 19! that gives me a year and 6ish months to figure out the next step. My idea is to pay my mom (if I can still stay on the insurance) the difference of what she would be paying and is paying now.

So between God, this book I’m reading called The Graveyard Story (and it’s good, you should read it you bookworms), and astronomy, all of it making me realize that what happens to me personally is not unique, catastrophic, or worthy of a mental breakdown.
In Romans 8 it says something like nothing can seperate us from the love of the lord. Not sin, sword, or whatever else it said. It also says those who love God, things will always work out for good, even if you get in a bad situation because of sin.
Why should I get scared and freak out over every rough spot I come to in my life? Things will work out for good (not always BEST), but my needs will be met.

So I’m starting a happiness project that kind of goes under this goal.
http://www.happiness-project.com/happiness_project/
While I was reading, the one thing that stuck out to me is where it said something like most things won’t matter in the long run. Which is why this fits pretty well here.
I stress about everything, everything is a big deal, and I try to make the most of everything (which I do in a VERY do-or-die serious way). For some reason, I don’t want to miss out on anything life has to offer. I think a lot of people think that way.
I’m not sure how I’m going to doing this. From what I was reading, I should start accepting myself and my limitations (which just happens to be a new years resolution).

I finished challenge numero dos and I totally forgot about it. Cool. I’ve pretty much adopted a motto. Whatever people freak out about life and then come to me and complain, I tell them to relax and have a smoke.

challenge numero tres Leptin, it’s not my best friend in the world. From the video I saw, I get it, but I could not explain it. So the challenge is: Eat only if I’m hungry (and eat healthier).

I was at the library. I was reading this book of quotes and one got me thinking. I don’t exactly remember what it said and I’m not going to look it up, but it was something about not taking life too seriously. Which is exactly what I’ve been doing.
Me and my boyfriend have been talking about moving in together, getting married, kids, the whole deal. Which is like, really scary. I might love him, idk, I care about him a lot. _{but it’s only been a month and a half, holy shit.} Needless to say, we’re really pushing things along.
I really want to get the most out of life, have as much fun as I can and sleep when I’m dead. I’ve really been focusing on my education. My goal was to go to a community college for mortuary science and eventually go to medical school for my PhD. That’s 8yrs total.
What made me reconsider was watching a movie where this guy had a bunch of adventures moutain climbing, traveling, all that.
My job can’t be my life and I’m wondering if going to medical school and working as a coraner would take too much time away from my life. I don’t want a job where I have to be on call all the time. Forget that.
Why do jobs have to take up so much time? >=[

Is going well. Very well, actually, until I met this guy that lives like 20mi. away. And doesn’t have a license yet. He’s freakin 18!
Anyway, I’m sure I’ll still have enough money for gas.

Challange numero dos: who cares if I don’t feel like wearing makeup and looking just perfect!

I’m always worried if I have enough money, if I’m skinny enough, if I look okay, if my grades are okay, what that guy in my 3rd hr is staring at, dumb crap thats just going to stress me out until I have a heart attack when I’m 25.
I don’t really know how I’m not going to take things seriously because that’s what I do, worry and sit around a cry about it (not literally.)

Challenge numero uno: who cares if I have enough money. As long as like $10 for gas. Which I can set aside and not even keep it with me

I tend to take things way too serious, as well as think way too hard and worry about things that I dont really have any control over. Its a curse.
I just need to relax and have a little more fun.
yeah that sounds good.