find out what to do with my life

too soon to be thinking about this!!

I’m 31 years old, Married to a wonderful woman since 2 years. My life has been quite unconventional so far, according to Italian’s standards. After school, I was 19, I joined a spiritual group where for 5 years I had an Indian master, living in New York, and lots of friends from the group. I often traveled to NY and spent time with the guru, traveled in Europe a lot, lived in Germany for a few months and being very active in the disciple life. But after 5 years I gave up that lifestyle, left the group and flew to London to start a new life. I spent almost 3 years in London, working in bars and restaurants. During this 3 years time I went to India and South east Asia for a 7 months long journey during which I felt an amazing feeling of freedom and liberation. Three years ago, while I was still in London I met My future wife and now we live in Italy together and we love each other every day more. Our original plan was to travel and work abroad for 2 or 3 years and eventually open our own guest house, somewhere in the world, in a nice place where we can have a high quality of life. Then, a few months ago we received an offer from an acquaintance, to open a guest house in Italy. We decided we would do that, since it was a “once in a life” opportunity, and start searching for the place to buy, with the financial support of our friend. But now we are realizing that our view on the project is pretty different to our friends + he doesn’t seem very reliable any more. Therefore we are deciding to go back to our original plan and start working one year in Japan and from there then somewhere else. Well, you will say now : “dude, you know what to do, don’t you?”. Not really, since a part of myself wants to stop, and build something, and another part wants to travel and experience new thinks and lifestyles. So, what should I do with my life? I’ve got 5 months to find out.

I just finished my third year of university and I honestly do not know what I am going to do with my life!! I was a straight A student through out high school- in fact I had the second highest grade in my graduting class. But the moment I entered unoversity, everything went downhill. I entered into the Commerce program but I could not get the 63% in eco and accounting to get into the program. I was just doing horrible in school!! My grades were horrible- I have no idea what happened to the straight A student. So, I told my family that I was going to do economics- but the problem was that I didn’t have the grades to get into the eco program. I tried taking eco100 during the summer to get the 63%- but I dropped it b/c I was so behind in it and I just really hated the course. You would think that by then I would have realized that economics was not for me- but I took eco again this year in hopes of getting into the eco program- didn’t happen- failed the course. I also failed a stats course as well this past yr. So, my dillemma is this- I need 7.5 credits to graduate (which means I am currently taking two summer courses- both I really hate!), my parents think that I am doing a double major in economics and political science when really I am only doing a specialist in poli science, my GPA is crap and my parents want me to go to law school (like that is even possible). THere you have it- I am so lost with what to do with my life! I feel like I have no hope and that I will probably find a job that does not even live up to my degree!! I don’t even know what I can do with a poli sci degree. SO, this summer I just really want to sit down and figure my life out.