hmm looking at my last post I want to almost change that. As much as I want to keep things light and fun its not my role to do that. Im not responsible for everyone’s happiness. I can do little things- send people on coffee runs, try and get them to do something else, and yes tell a joke or two- but its not not my role to make sure they’re enjoying the work
Wanting to bring out the best in people is great/ great for productivity too , but I cant put the burden on myself that ’ me not smiling enough’ is causing them to be tired miserable looking employees 2 months ago
granted when im tired im less likely to smile, but i think when im also working i just have a boss face on. im gonna actively try to make people laugh and smile thtoughout my day from now on 3 months ago
Sometimes when im having a conversation with someone i like- I’m well aware of how this makes me sounds like im fourteen- I actively try not to smile. As if smiling somehow makes me seem too eager.. or gives me away too easily.
It’s actually pretty fucked. I need to stop that 5 months ago
this has been quite a rewarding goal. it was initially quite difficult to smile at strangers and now it’s becoming easier. there was one time when i smiled at an elderly and it took me by surprise that she smiled back! 5 months ago