Be a rebellious witch whore

Where are my priorities?

(By the way, having trouble navigating around 43T. Had to reopen in order to write this entry.)

Lately I’ve been getting all kinds of fired up over some controversial topics like mental illness, rape, and abortion. I’ve also been blogging about them and getting some different responses.

http://www.beautiflaw.blogspot.com/

But I’m glad. I feel better after getting out all my emotions and feelings, however unusual they may be.

I just a novel that has inspired the rebel in me once more.

This entry is xposted to one of my other goals, which is to read 43 books this year.

13. All for Love, The Scandalous Life and Times of Royal Mistress Mary Robinson by Amanda Elyot.

Romance novel sounding title, but there was nothing like that in the book. It was very good, it was based on the life of Mary Robinson who was an actress, poetess, novelist, playwright, feminist, and courtesan to the Prince of Wales. She was also a contemporary of Georgiana the Duchess of Devonshire, Marie Antoinette, and Mary Wollstonecraft. I never knew of her existence until I found this novel on sale at Books-A-Million. I’m surprised that I did not learn about her in school seeing as how she is one of the first feminists in history to write about the deplorable treatment of women even after the Enlightenment, and she is also considered one of the first “celebrities”, because she was very fashionable and the newspapers and gossip columns covered her every move. She was also a very talented and prolific writer, who wrote in just about every style of literature during hr short life. She died at only 43 and she had published MANY volumes of poetry and novels, and even some plays. She also was one of the first poets to use the style of romanticism and the della cruscan style. WHY was I not taught anything about this amazing woman?

I think I know, because if a woman is beautiful and sexual her intelligence means nothing. If Paris Hilton was a rocket scientist who donated all her money to charity and saved a baby from a runaway train, she would still be the most loved to hate celebrity there is. Of course, she does none of those things so I personally have no respect for her, but beautiful women are never taken seriously, if they have brains, and the beautiful women who don’t have a thought in their heads are placed higher in esteem than the ones that do.

Men get the credit for everything…

I have no plans on becoming a promiscious Wiccan as my prudish atheism does me good. I wouldn’t mind getting in the general spirit of things, even if the word ‘whore’ is clearly not the correct term here.

- Staying strong and not letting myself be used

- Nude photography session, even though my family doesn’t like it and some of my friends don’t either.

Talked to my mother in law and managed to stand my ground. I feel better about myself for doing it.

- Afternoon Delight!! HAHA! I was always told that “good girls” only have sex with the lights off, and they don’t enjoy it… I must be a very bad girl.

- Going off my diet for a few days. All the vigorous lovemaking has made me hungry… and I went off my diet for a while and now I’m getting back on. I do want to stay healthy but its nice to indulge when I can.

- Not taking any crap from anyone. I am tired of being a doormat and I am not going to let anyone treat me like one. I’m starting to voice my opinion more these days and it feels really good. I love feeling confident enough to let people know when they are hurting me. Surprisingly I have found that a lot of times when people do things that hurt my feelings they were unintentional, and I have a better relationship with people I can be honest with.

Which may be different than the others on this subject because to me, being a RWW is:

1. Staying sober, and honoring the gods with my healthy body and mind. Being drunk does not make me rebellious, it just makes me drunk. Going against the drunk crowd at the pagan events makes me rebellious!

1. A: Going to AA meetings and not saying the Lord’s Prayer, no matter how much pressure there is to do so, and still going to AA even when the other pagans think I’m nuts. It’s not nutty, it’s healthy individualism, a.k.a Rebellion!

2. Eating right, and being careful what I eat, and loving my body through right food and exercise.

3. Being in a happy relationship (see 6 below) by doing what I need to do in self-work and my own personal ethical system.
3a. Walk away from a guy that treats me poorly, even if he is a big shot single guy in the community. Go to therapy, work the steps, but make myself stronger than that. _{I see a lot of the more feminist women in the community just take crap from bully-boy boyfriends/husbands/consorts. It’s so weird.}

4. Respectfully, questioning the 3rd degree HP/s in the community, (and other such poohbahs) no matter how exalted they may think they are. And be ready to walk away from their B.S., even if they damn you to the rest of the community, and tell lies and do whatever they can to harm you. Always question authority and believe in yourself. I have found my true pagan friends by doing so.

5. Being a true polytheist in the pagan monotheist community:

The common pagan ‘We all come from the One Source’ is still monotheism, the one god concept. It’s just wrapped up in different packaging, and the times I’ve been berated and laughed at won’t change my mind (see #4 above lol).
I honestly believe their are multiple gods and goddesses, they come from various sources, they are not necessarily connected, and the universe started from different forces colliding, not some one source Big Bang.

This explains why some people are so different, they really do, in their essence, emanate from different places. And the key to me is just accepting that, instead of trying to find out where we’re all alike. Some times it works to find our differences instead of similarities (all one source stuff).

I don’t have to understand/explain why I am different than someone who literally follows the Bible for instance, just know their essence comes from a different place, and we don’t have to meet in the middle. Just avoid them and let them be.

And actually, science is finding out the evolution is actually more a web with different sources connecting, instead of the one source tree that was previously accepted. And there are quite possibly other universes and dimensions with their own trees and webs that are not even remotely connected to this one!

And the whore part? Be wild when I want to be, monogamous now cause that can rock at this part of my life, and never let society define me, or my opinion of anyone else sexually. Let gays marry!

6. Oh, and stick to my personal principal that other womens’ men are strictly Off Limits, no matter what. No matter what. A RWW does not scheme on another woman’s man just because their is a scarcity of straight men in this community. That does not make me a prude to say so, and to have practiced that belief. It makes me have pagan ethical principals. I found my very own single pagan man by waiting, and working with the gods. I don’t understand a lot of women I see throwing themselves at attached/married men.

But I guess I was always a rebellious witch whore. I have never taken crap from anybody. I don’t hold back on what I believe. I do choose to pick my battles, because I do like to keep the peace. If there is something I feel strongly about, I let it fly. My mother always told me to trust myself. And I always do.

Oh my goodness. I just watched the Tyra Banks show earlier and I felt compelled to write a bit about my RWWness.

The show was about single women who don’t want to be married or have children versus married women with children, and women who wants to be married, and stuff like that. There was one couple on the show who got married and has chosen not have have kids. It was a really good show and the married women had a lot of good points and the single women did too, but basically both sides agreed that once you get married you sacrifice independence and you give up a part of yourself in order to be with someone else. I say that it doesn’t have to be that way.

When I started dating my husband I was not looking for marriage, I was not looking for anything. I just wanted to date and have fun, but we ended up really loving each other and we decided to make a commitment. Making a commitment is not the same as submitting to someone else’s will. There are sacrifices that I have made in order to be with my husband, like having to move far away from home in order to be with him, but I was dying to get out of my home state anyway. I can pretty much do whatever I want and he is okay with my choices because he loves me, and he respects what I want to do with my life. I support him in his career and he supports me in mine, which is similar to the relationship a single woman might have with her girlfriends or family members… but I get to have sex with my support system. Haha. He is more like my friend, not someone that I feel like I have to take care of or whatever.

I am actually not a fan of marriage. If my husband was not the way he is, I would not have married him. I see our marriage as a partnership and the way marriage was intended to be, rather than what most marriages I see today. When I see the kinds of marriages some people I know have, I see a woman in submission to her husband, doing what he wants her to do, rather than fulfilling her own wishes. If I thought that was the kind of marriage I would have then I wouldn’t have gotten married.