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I’ll do this soon…

So I’ve been on hiatus from blogging at all this last month-plus due to the explosion of the fall semester that inevitably occurs 3-6 weeks out from finals.

What’s new?

1. My hard drive crashed last week. It’s been rough. But I finally got my computer back today, and it’s like starting fresh and actually feels rather cleansing. I can now just take a deep breath and move forward. No news yet of how much if any data will be recovered. I remain hopeful, however, because really, why not?

2. There are about two weeks before most of my DMA applications are due. I almost have all of my ducks in a row. I just need to finish the actual applications online, update/print all of my scores I intend on sending out, and of course, finish the orchestrated chunk of my thesis that I want to send out as well. All of this has been put on hold for the last week as a result of point 1. Dumb.

3. I am almost done with my ensemble for the semester. It’s been swell. I like playing piano in an ensemble. It’s stressful but not nearly as much as solo playing, which gives me the shakes.

4. I have so much classwork to catch up on it’s not even funny. A 10-12 page paper due in exactly one week, an opera proposal for a play I haven’t even read yet in three, a 20 minute presentation over lord knows what in three, and a 16-20 page paper due in four.

So for now I bid ye adieu mein interwebs. And also a fond farewell to my friend sleep. I’ll miss you both. See you again mid-December!

I just finished reinstalling Sibelius onto my computer. Nose to the grindstone. Pedal to the metal.

I am very good at joining them. I am usually a little late in getting there, and stick around far longer than is probably appropriate, but alas, this is how I’ve resigned myself to be. However, I would like to separate myself from a mere follower. I am an extremist to the full degree—I will pour my heart, my soul, my being into this blog and make it my own. My dribble about being a composer, a musician, a baker, a knitter and all around domestic will be sung from the hilltops all because I said so. And in the words of Milton Babbit (kinda^1.), “who cares if you listen”? Because I will say it regardless of who may be reading, because I have an intrinsic need, like everyone, to express my opinions, thoughts, and emotions, to release them into the ether and let them go on their merry way to where they will.

I like this too, because it gives yet another dumping ground for one of my favorite websites out there: 43things.com. It’s a site for the goal oriented at heart. Part social networking, part self exploration, 43things allows users to list, order, prioritize, blog upon and remind themselves of (up to 43) things they are doing in their lives. It also allows users to cheer others on in their quests for self-betterment/enlightenment/indulgence and to create forums of discussion on how to accomplish certain goals they have in common. It is a great site, and I wish more people I know were on it. However, the fact that random people around the world are cheering me on, and that I am doing the same thing for others is also a nice feeling—a sort of paying it forward kind of thing. (ps I am not getting paid for this plug, although my many showers of praise might convince wary readers otherwise).

So this is where I shall stow short posts on my goals at 43things.com, amongst other things I feel the need to chat about.

Cheers!

1.Milton Babbit didn’t coin this phrase, a magazine editor did. “Who Cares If You Listen” remains his most famous article on music, however, and the title is most certainly in the spirit of his ideas.

I’m writing on a longer article for one of my professional projects and published a longer article on the weekend.

My private blog is alive and kicking. The professional blogging just lacks time, doing that besides a full-time job is quite tough. :(

In addition to my process blog, I’ve now started a Health Updates Journal on CaringBridge: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/perpetualspiral So far I’ve been able to write more frequently in this blog since it is about one subject and that subject does crop up every day – my health fluctuates wildly, symptoms come and go… I’ve written a bit more frequently in my process blog, but not as much as I would like. However, I don’t really have much time to write in it more, or very much to say over the last few months. My psychological progress (i.e. my therapy) seems to have stalled in the spring, and it’s only in the last week or so that I’ve had anything going on inside me to write about. Now a lot of things are cropping up because I’m turning 35 tomorrow, finding white hair…feeling like something is ending, doors are closing. And somewhere in there I’m starting to finally deal with my feelings about my father. Just starting. I’ve a lot to talk to my therapist about this week!

comments coming in, I casually write entries, flourishing and growing. Now I just need to do the same with my professional blogs… more difficult because ambitions are higher. Perfectionism striking again. Sigh.

just wrote an entry to my private blog about computing issues, asking readers for advice.
My head is full with blogging ideas, writing them down is the difficult part. There are so many. If I were to get them all out, I’d sit in front of my computer all the weekend. What do you do about that, dear readers?

- actually, I’ve got several blogs, and I’ve treated one with a new theme and new plugins today. Go me! So now I only need to publish some entries to this one. Or do good to the other blogs.

for an article I mean to write.