be present

Like so many people I was touched by Tolle’s works. I’ve found that not being present is the root cause of most of my problems.
I’ve noticed that being more in the moment even seems to make colours brighter.

Sometimes it is difficult. At times I really enjoy thinking about future appointments. But they often turn into negative fantasies, where I get my enjoyment from complaining to other people about bad things happening. I need to work on this.

I’m tired of reacting and I keep hearing my parents voices when I speak to my kids. I say things and I don’t know why. I want to think first and be in the moment.

is to be present. Avoid dips into history or the future for that matter. Also the gift you offer others by being present is amazing. The key is to do it! I am working on it. Got off to a bad start while lying in bed – now I am much more decisive and yes, present.

Still just going through the motions for the most part, but I have had more “present moments” than normal lately. Yay!

On the other hand, I drove several places in the past couple days and upon arriving couldn’t remember anything about the drive there at all! I must be zoning out pretty bad.

anyone find e. tolle to be a helpful author on this? any one else i should read?

i want to shed unnecessary yet overwhelming fear, pain and sadness that i face whenever i deal with my dysfunctional marriage.

i am happy to Be.
regardless of my marriage/health/finance status.

my status is—> present.

i’m always worrying about the past or the future. then i neglect to live in the now.

I don’t want to get to the end of the day and realize I went through the motions without experiencing all that I could!

I think right now this is my biggest issue. I pretend a lot. Make stories up in my head about how I wish my life was I guess. I think a lot about beautiful people I know from beautiful places that I haven’t been in far too many days for them to be occupying so much of my head. I plan trips, I plan what I’m going to do when I’m done with school, I pretend I have friends in my head, and I think too much about the ones I have had in the past.

So where is the now in this? I’m not living in my life, I’m living in my head.

I don’t have very much going on in my life at the moment. I guess I’m just bored. I know – so I need to do things. I honestly don’t know what. I guess what I want to do.. I do need to work on this and just get my life back a little bit.

He had one but it was a glorified toddler bike and the seat was raised as high as it could go and it was still too small. HE LOVES IT!!!!!
There was a time in my life that I feared that the best thing for my family would be if I wasn’t even here. That they would be better off without me.

I am here to say that it is not the case! I know now that I was listening to the voice of the enemy. I know now that I was believing the lies that he was whispering in my ears. I can recognize his voice now. I no longer am weakened by his whispers. In fact, I am the first to tell him that he holds no power over me. I tell him to go away and he does. At least until he figures out some other scheme to try and wiggle through with.

I know that my families lives and all the lives that I come into contact with now are indeed better off then before I did. Not because of some grand thing that I’ve done but rather because He flows through me and onto them.

When I think of all the times I almost missed out on altogether because of his lies it drops me to my knees in thankfulness for the grace that allows me a new start every day! The grace that saved my life for me until I was strong enough to live it for myself!

I AM present and accounted for!

I’ve said b4, I’ll say it again: Sobriety Rocks!