be okay alone

definitely okay with the being alone romantically
and now I’m much more comfortable with going places, doing things, and acting on impulse alone
mission accomplished, and I think ultimately this is a necessity to happy living

goin’ stag to formal tomorrow night
I’m just about positive that I’ll have more fun stag than with a guy
I’m sad for people who thing it’s a shame that I go places alone
how would I ever get to know myself??

I think I’m actually okay on this one
and then I fall into wanting to be with someone
and so enjoy entertaining the idea that I’m not okay alone anymore.

went to a school concert today alone around a lot of people I knew
kind of awkward but mostly I think because of how I felt about it
more opportunities to come I’m sure

I managed to go 6 days without talking to or contacting or really having the urge to contact my best friend and roommate.
She broke the fast by sending me a message on the 7th day.
She is one of the best fall backs I have for being not being alone and I’m proud to have gone so long without her.
I will be attending a play this Friday without any friends.
Bring it.

Love yourself, and that involves keeping busy doing things for you

i have a boyfriend now.
how do i do this?

okay.
i don’t have anyone living with me. i don’t have some kind of relationship where we sleep together and then i wake up and i’m upset because they’ve got to go home or go to work.
it isn’t like that.
i just can’t be alone. i have to be talking to someone and doing something with someone. and i hate going home.
it’s terrible.
and it’s pathetic.

and i want to be okay just sitting in silence alone.
i’m a writer and i can’t even write because i have to call someone mid-sentence to make sure they’re there.

i have to stop doing this.

so i said i wanted to be okay alone…not good…just okay. and i am. i’ve never had been single before and i am now. its not so bad after all. its a little lonely at times but for the most part im alright. i want to find love, i konw where it is but its so hard to reach right now. im not sure if he thinks the same though. but i have great friends and they support me. im finally okay alone though! yea!

so i just want to be okay alone at times. i dont think i can ever do it all by myself. but its great to have someone to talk to and then they leave so you can be alone for a little bit. and its okay!